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- Aug 18, 2020
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Does it make you more or less suicidal? Does it have any influence on your suicidality? I thought about this when I talked with my friends. I am in Germany. Not Ukraine or Russia. Both of my friends said they are sometimes crying due to the situation and one feels physically sick. I was kind of astonished. I am the mental wreck normally such things should rather affect my mental well-being. But emotionally I don't feel burdened at all. I asked them for the reasons. They are scared to die, they are scared WW3 could happen, that they have to leave the country and that they might have to be soldiers in a war. The point were I could relate the most was they feel bad because the people of Ukraine are assaulted.
But for me I am not really in emotional pain because of that. When WW3 would happen it would make my life just more absurd. Probably it would be extremely bad for humankind. I would probably suffer a lot too. On the other hand I am really fatalistic about that. I am always worried that I don't play the cards which I have been dealt the right way. If WW3 happened I would not have had any influence. I would be happy if the war would kill me. Though it would probably not be peaceful. I am pretty sure my government would never give a mental wreck like me a weapon. Lol. I doubt they need a psychotic maniac as soldier.
I am barely affected due to this war. It is true it is a human catastrophe. But I follow the news a lot and there is everyday suffering. Syria or Yemen have heartbreaking situations since a very long time. But i got used to it after a while. Maybe I am too numb. I just have too much own mental demons I can't really spend too much energy on that. It is true the war is very close to our borders. If it happens it happens. I can't change anything.
To be honest I am curious what is happening next. It resembles for me the start of the covid crisis. Many were really scared that their lives could be screwed. I am just thinking my life is already shit just fuck it. Maybe not a smart way of thinking. But it changes nothing. I was always very interested how WW3 could happen. I read a lot about it. Looked at simulations and strategies.
Of course it would be horrble for so many humans. It must be prevented. I am very sorry that this happens to the people of Ukraine. I hope you find help for example in Poland or Germany. I absolutely don't want to say I am in favor of the war. I am very opposed to that. But I always was fascinated by military strategies and such scenarios. I follow the siuation closely.
How are you dealing with this? Probably the people from Ukraine must feel very horrible. There are probably some in this forum. As I said I am really sorry. I don't want to play down war. I hope you all can cope in some way of form with it. It must be crushing to leave your homes and all your possessions.
But for me I am not really in emotional pain because of that. When WW3 would happen it would make my life just more absurd. Probably it would be extremely bad for humankind. I would probably suffer a lot too. On the other hand I am really fatalistic about that. I am always worried that I don't play the cards which I have been dealt the right way. If WW3 happened I would not have had any influence. I would be happy if the war would kill me. Though it would probably not be peaceful. I am pretty sure my government would never give a mental wreck like me a weapon. Lol. I doubt they need a psychotic maniac as soldier.
I am barely affected due to this war. It is true it is a human catastrophe. But I follow the news a lot and there is everyday suffering. Syria or Yemen have heartbreaking situations since a very long time. But i got used to it after a while. Maybe I am too numb. I just have too much own mental demons I can't really spend too much energy on that. It is true the war is very close to our borders. If it happens it happens. I can't change anything.
To be honest I am curious what is happening next. It resembles for me the start of the covid crisis. Many were really scared that their lives could be screwed. I am just thinking my life is already shit just fuck it. Maybe not a smart way of thinking. But it changes nothing. I was always very interested how WW3 could happen. I read a lot about it. Looked at simulations and strategies.
Of course it would be horrble for so many humans. It must be prevented. I am very sorry that this happens to the people of Ukraine. I hope you find help for example in Poland or Germany. I absolutely don't want to say I am in favor of the war. I am very opposed to that. But I always was fascinated by military strategies and such scenarios. I follow the siuation closely.
How are you dealing with this? Probably the people from Ukraine must feel very horrible. There are probably some in this forum. As I said I am really sorry. I don't want to play down war. I hope you all can cope in some way of form with it. It must be crushing to leave your homes and all your possessions.