Discussion How do you turn pain/suffering into a source of motivation/fuel

[playalistic]

Oftentimes I hear the saying of something along the lines of "are you depressed? are you heartbroken? are you in pain? if so, you can either let it lead you down the shithole of self destruction or you can use it as an unlimited source of motivation"

For me i feel the same way at my current state. Sometimes in glimmers of hope there is a thought in my head:
I have 2 options, i can either
a) commit suicide. I will no longer suffer or feel pain ever again, but i'll no longer be around to see it ever get better and I will leave my family/loved ones behind
Or
b) i can use the rest of my life, the rest of what i have left, to become a complete animal, use the knowledge and strength i do have to improve myself as much as possible and become the most powerful man i can be. fuck it i was up against 100% odds of death before, now i can make the world my oyster. and maybe once i do that, become the man i know i can become, once i see how amazing this world is i wont want to be dead anymore

The problem is I oftentimes feel overwhelmed/defeated by pain rather than motivated/pushed to do and become better by it. How do I reverse this destructive habit of thought? How do I use pain/suffering as a source for good?

 

[Someplace_nice]

I've had the same problem as well, I never figured it out but ik some people who did, they used it in place of SH or to help ignore the problems they've had. I never wanted to do it like that and I never was able to use my depression as fuel, I would start with low expectations and small things tho, if you have low expectations then you're most likely not gonna feel bad for not achieving what you wanted. Like if you struggle with chores like I do you could have the expectation of doing one chore a day, you won't feel bad and your still getting something done, the better you get at it the higher you can raise those expectations until you think you can't anymore, I'm bad at pushing myself so at that point I would talk to someone else but I'd imagine it'd be the same thing. If you go all in than you will give yourself burnout and quit and that's not what life's about. You got a be a winner and that takes time weather it's you just picking up your room or getting something better that I can't think of, I know you can achieve it! It just takes time.