How do you spend a typical day?

[Thoughtforms]

Anyone like me and can just spend days in bed and not do anything?


I have no motivation to do anything anymore. All I do is look at my phone. The only time I leave my bed is to eat or wash or go see my dr.

 

[EndofMyRope]

In bed... :(

 

[TAW122]

I'm in a similar boat, but lately I've just been bracing myself for my inevitable end. It is only a matter of the right catalyst (or combination of catalysts and circumstances) in which it pushes me over the edge and I ctb. I have my method and just now it is only a waiting game for me.

 

[Jodes]

Anyone like me and can just spend days in bed and not do anything?


I have no motivation to do anything anymore. All I do is look at my phone. The only time I leave my bed is to eat or wash or go see my dr.

Same. Whether I can sleep 6 or 20 hours, every little thing when awake just makes me think about CTB. I can never just sit in bed though, too restless. So I get up and fidget elsewhere

 

[SiArc]

Bed, couch, porch. I don't leave the house now that I am winding down a second time to my end date. No need to.

 

[gnrluver0105]

I'm in vacation from work, spending my last 5 days in bed, only woke up to eat, wash, and do some exercise sometimes, when I have to go to work, just add going to work

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Get up, make breakfast, browse the internet, eat lunch, browse the internet, eat dinner, browse the internet, sleep

 

[311]

In bed on the internet

 

[therhydler]

Lying around, on SS

 

[Sinbad]

Smoking shisha alone

 

[DeletedUser4739]

no matter what i'm doing or where i'm at, i'd always rather be dead. most of the time i exist in bed. i'm uncomfortable just leaving my bedroom, to enter the rest of the small condo where i live. i try, but a small, secluded room just feels safer. i hate the isolation, my thoughts and feelings, they're endless torture.

 

[Eden2k]

I'm either sleeping, taking showers, listening to music on my Dre beats, browsing the net, resisting urge not to act impulsively, ignoring my phone, a quick bite to eat, if I can be bothered, and entertaining my cat, which is throwing her toys across the floor. I'm living the dream

 

[Misanthrope]

I am pretty much at the mercy of nausea and that defines how functional I can be in a given day. It is not uncommon these days though to spend all day in a dressing gown playing video games beside a sick bucket.


I still moderate on the forum of my prior work place as a volunteer of sorts and that gives me some satisfaction of being helpful. However I am not as active, as my former training is starting to become obsolete and I am simply getting sicker. My tolerance for trolls telling our clients they are a drain on society has entirely run out. My responses have been less than professional, a point that has been impressed on me.


I am at a state where I fantasize about finding where they live and gouging out their eyes and shattering their spine in 37 places so they can live in chronic pain themselves. Hopefully learning an experiential lesson in humility and also winding up vilified for existing as a sort of poetic justice. My days are pretty much spent ruminating in impotent hatred at the scum I have met and are still out there doing harm. It feels like I can't let go of anything any more and I sometimes lose chunks of time just lost in thought but not knowing what I was even thinking about.


I find myself pining for my active days that will never return short of a medical miracle and a new brain. Without the ability to take my anti-psychotics I am plagued by horrible imagery and echoes of conversations I would rather not remember. I am finding my ability to read is greatly reduced. So that is one avenue of escape slowly closing off to me. Still avidly watch films though or binge watch an entire series of something.


My days boil down to lengthy efforts of distraction. My guinea pigs give me some joy, but I can't look after them effectively so am close to having to re-home them. Video games are a quite literal life line to ongoing sanity and a way to vent this building homicidal feeling. The worlds within often make more fucking sense than this one. But even that is starting to get contaminated by brain fog or intense nausea that destroys any ability to concentrate.


I am pretty much waiting to die at this stage, but I have obligations that I have to see safe before I can take my final exit. It is just each day of surviving to survive feels unbearable.

 

[Eden2k]

View attachment 4632 Smoking shisha alone

I know that leg from somewhere lol

 

[Sinbad]

I know that leg from somewhere lol

You might have seen it on a cat walk ;)

 

[Eden2k]

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You might have seen it on a cat walk ;)

And the foot. It's all coming back to me now lol

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Ritual.
Every day I wake up, go to work, drone for roughly ten hour, come home, play a little on the computer and then sleep.
On weekends I still wake up as if I'm going to work because the human brain is impressively stupid. Instead of work, though, I'll go on a walk that is as long as the way to work is, take my pills as usual, and then play some game that makes me feel worth something. GTAV feels like a success story of a stock broker And starbound is a success story of an intergalactic slum lord. Not really a slum lord, seeing as I'm doing all these quests... but still... a success story. The storyline is boring. Being a rich guy is far more fun.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Eat (if no nausea), sleep (if no insomnia), take painkillers, watch films on Netflix, play vidya and browse the web. I go out around twice a week for docs or shopping. The rest of my time is spent in bed or on my couch.

 

[littlelady774]

I try to act as normal as possible- masking my feelings of depression and emptiness.
But when nobody is looking- I mostly just cry, sleep and look forward to death

 

[Pegasus]

Smoke weed, college, drink, interwebs ...

 

[Final Escape]

View attachment 4632 Smoking shisha alone

Looks fun :)

 

[OkTotti]

nothing but be on SS and watch Youtube videos...

 

[Sotipoola]

Sleep

 

[JJ-NOHOPE]

Unemployed. Have a big house but rarely leave my bed. Love my iPad, watch tv, surf the net.
Rarely go out.
Sometimes drink tequila. It's disgusting. I never drank before the last couple of months.
Perform self harm by slicing up my arm.
Think about suicide.
Think about all the things I've missed in life.
Be alone. Always and infinitely alone.

It's a great life.

 

[Gray Wounds]

Control the body.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Wallowing in my own misery

 

[antivita]

I can never work out a schedule so it really depends, but more often than not I'm just in bed watching a tv show or something. I go through shows faster than anyone I know. I also like to drive a lot because it's one of the only things that calms me down so I'll do that for a couple hours if I can.