i'd definitely spend mine in nature. i grew up in an urban province, and studied in the capital. i haven't spent as much time in nature than i would've liked.
i plan on going on a forest hike. just sit in the sounds of nature and look at trees. i've always loved and felt comfy looking at and being surrounded by trees, i think it's the monke in me.
recently i read about the japanese concept of komorebi. it pertains to the tranquility one feels looking at the light that brush past the leaves of trees. i'd like to appreciate this in my last days.
i also have an urge to go crazy though. go and do everything that i've always put off or have always felt embarassed to do. i'd like to ride a rollercoaster but always feared looking stupid. or eat a fat piece of steak. go to the cinema alone. spend an entire day playing games—i've always liked playing games, but between growing up broke and school getting in the way, i'd like to induldge in it for a while and catch up with a major part of culture.
i've always felt like we're just a tiny tiny blip in the history of the universe. a product of random rearrangements of particles. we matter so little it's fucking funny. but the human in me wants to end things on a good note. i do not know what compels me to, but i want to spend my last days being kind, and appreciative.
whatever you end up doing, i hope you find what you set out to find. i wish you the best. <3
