nopointofliving
Warrior
- Apr 19, 2021
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I'm just lying on bed after 12 h of sleep, I can't get up. all what I think about is killing myself but I'm not ready yet. Please help.
Thank you for the kind reply. My waking and sleeping habits aren't regular at all. I sleep a lot so I won't face the reality.I used to feel just like you.
I guess everything changed when I realized that being in the bed all the time, just thinking of suicide, would only make things worse.
If I was gonna ctb, I would have to do it quickly.
Then, seeing that I didn't have the guts to go for it, I decided to change my bad habits and instead of being in bed 24/7, I was 12 hours and during the day I did normal stuff such as taking a shower, reading, going for walks, etc.
These small steps turned into giant strides and now I'm able to work again and only in bed when I go to watch some existential videos on Youtube and than just fall asleep lol.
Sure, I'm still suicidal but...I feel better at least.
Be careful with your sleeping time. If you don't wake up/go to bed at the same time everyday, it's harder to recover.
I feel you.Barely, and by sheer force of self hatred.
If I don't get out of bed then I'll get a call from my boss, and that's like drinking a big jug of battery acid.
I don't usually get out of bed at the weekends.
Anything particularly happened ?My friends and work, and I like to get an occasional walk in the city, sometimes I go to the parties, also exercising, recently I started to feel suicidal again and I don't really feel like getting out of bed
This is my problem, I take everything seriouslyGuess I don't really take things seriously, if I did I would be immobilized by pain and inferiority.
Anything particularly happened ?
This is my problem, I take everything seriously
I feel you. I also feel I can fight for a moment, and then I feel to ctb in the next moment. It is awful ;(Not really and that's the worst I think, because there is no way that I can fix that, thanks for asking anyway
I'm sorry you feel so. Life is hard for real. I sleep too much because I'm scared to face my reality :( sending hugs and love to youI've been suffering from insomnia and extreme sleep deprivation for half a year. In my previous apartment before the ceiling started breaking and I became severely ill, I usually slept 9-10 hours + daydreamed and read books and surfed on the phone. I miss those days, they were good days. I wish I could return to those days. Now I'm too stressed and anxious and scared to sleep or daydream so no reason to be in bed. I'll just end up thinking of how my life sucks now and how god hates me and how everyone hates me and how I hate myself. I also absolutely need to take a shower and eat plus take a walk in addition to seeing my dog everyday or I can't function. Though, even if I do those things, I still can't function because I'm not at my real home.
I can relate... don't know how can we get out of this:(The only reason i get out of bed is because i have to take a piss and for some reason laying down for any extended amount of time hurts a fair bit.
This. If someone invented beds with built-in toilets and food delivery directly into bedrooms I'd truly never have any reason to leave.For food or need to pee haha