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- Aug 18, 2020
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Maybe I am a loudmouth myself. I think a way how to deal with my past bullying is trying to be more and more educated. This is why I often/sometimes overestimate my intelligence.
But others try to demonstrate their overconfidence in a way worse way. Some people gave me the feedback I indeed do this but in a sympathetic manner. I think they have not lied to me in order to make me feel better.
Today I have met someone who has a similar biography like me. Also childhood abuse which caused severe mental illness but he deals with it way better than me. Maybe ignorance really is a bliss. He sometimes behaves like a complete dick and he made really embarrassing things in the past but he does not care about any self-esteem or what others think about him. He has a girlfriend in contrast to me despite the fact he is a misogynist. I don't talk with him a lot about my suicidality. I think he thinks people who are suicidal or commit suicide would be weak.
This dude really has some problems. He pretended towards myself that he was in the past on the edge of suicide and almost killed himself. I won't go into details but his method wasn't in any way lethal. It would not have been lethal in any way. You can't kill yourself with the thing he wanted to use this is a myth. And you can find that out by simply googling it and everyone will tell you this isn't in any form lethal or dangerous.
He bragged about his intelligence and he is extremely obsessed by the culture war. I envy that he can enjoy life despite the fact he is on welfare. He experienced poverty since his childhood I think in contrast to me he is used to it. He told me he predicted the Ukraine war at the start of February. I think this was an obvious lie...but I don't really care to call him out for that.
He tells me working is so easy and most people are just too lazy to find work. Yeah it is ironic because he is unemployed himself. He always tells me yeah soon I will take this job or that one. But he never does it. I mean I understand if your mental illness is that crippling that you can't work but he is just insulting unemployed people.
He has done some really insulting statements about vulnerable people. This is why I never talk with him about my feelings. Normally I think people who suffer like us would become more empathetic towards vulnerable people for him this clearly is not the case.
I could point out some contradictions in his world view which are pretty obvious but I don't want that the culture war destroys our relationship. My other friends tell me they would stop meeting him after all the things he has said about vulnerable people. Today he has used Nazi vocabulary while talking badly about a minority. I don't think he is a Nazi but I think he just does not know that this was Nazi vocabulary.
He really has a lot of mental problems I count that as an excuse for his behavior. He has sometimes really insane stances...I mean everyone copes with traumata and abuse in a different way.
Despite all of this insanity I admire him in some way that he can deal with life without wanting to kill himself all the time. I am so obsessed with suicide. He has often described to me his mental problems and they seem to pretty nasty. My brain is wired in a different way. And maybe I am the insane one. Maybe we are both insane but in different ways.
I am glad I am not like him. If we could switch our shoes I would not do it. Even if this would save me from my suicide. I don't want to be like him. I try to learn from him how to deal with obstacles without wanting to kill myself. But I have the feeling we are just too different.
Do you know a loudmouth and how do you deal with them? Damn this thread has become way longer than I expected. Sorry for that.
But others try to demonstrate their overconfidence in a way worse way. Some people gave me the feedback I indeed do this but in a sympathetic manner. I think they have not lied to me in order to make me feel better.
Today I have met someone who has a similar biography like me. Also childhood abuse which caused severe mental illness but he deals with it way better than me. Maybe ignorance really is a bliss. He sometimes behaves like a complete dick and he made really embarrassing things in the past but he does not care about any self-esteem or what others think about him. He has a girlfriend in contrast to me despite the fact he is a misogynist. I don't talk with him a lot about my suicidality. I think he thinks people who are suicidal or commit suicide would be weak.
This dude really has some problems. He pretended towards myself that he was in the past on the edge of suicide and almost killed himself. I won't go into details but his method wasn't in any way lethal. It would not have been lethal in any way. You can't kill yourself with the thing he wanted to use this is a myth. And you can find that out by simply googling it and everyone will tell you this isn't in any form lethal or dangerous.
He bragged about his intelligence and he is extremely obsessed by the culture war. I envy that he can enjoy life despite the fact he is on welfare. He experienced poverty since his childhood I think in contrast to me he is used to it. He told me he predicted the Ukraine war at the start of February. I think this was an obvious lie...but I don't really care to call him out for that.
He tells me working is so easy and most people are just too lazy to find work. Yeah it is ironic because he is unemployed himself. He always tells me yeah soon I will take this job or that one. But he never does it. I mean I understand if your mental illness is that crippling that you can't work but he is just insulting unemployed people.
He has done some really insulting statements about vulnerable people. This is why I never talk with him about my feelings. Normally I think people who suffer like us would become more empathetic towards vulnerable people for him this clearly is not the case.
I could point out some contradictions in his world view which are pretty obvious but I don't want that the culture war destroys our relationship. My other friends tell me they would stop meeting him after all the things he has said about vulnerable people. Today he has used Nazi vocabulary while talking badly about a minority. I don't think he is a Nazi but I think he just does not know that this was Nazi vocabulary.
He really has a lot of mental problems I count that as an excuse for his behavior. He has sometimes really insane stances...I mean everyone copes with traumata and abuse in a different way.
Despite all of this insanity I admire him in some way that he can deal with life without wanting to kill himself all the time. I am so obsessed with suicide. He has often described to me his mental problems and they seem to pretty nasty. My brain is wired in a different way. And maybe I am the insane one. Maybe we are both insane but in different ways.
I am glad I am not like him. If we could switch our shoes I would not do it. Even if this would save me from my suicide. I don't want to be like him. I try to learn from him how to deal with obstacles without wanting to kill myself. But I have the feeling we are just too different.
Do you know a loudmouth and how do you deal with them? Damn this thread has become way longer than I expected. Sorry for that.
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