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Roseate

Mage
Mar 24, 2021
555
I cope by being in control. And if I lose control, my life is hectic. What are ways you guys get in control of your life? I control what I eat, I suppress my emotions, I punish myself, and I stay to myself because people are problematic and selfish.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I get in control by organizing my room and making it look nice. I can't stand a mess. Messes give me a headache and I can't think straight. I also get in control by suppressing my emotions. I don't even know what I'm feeling most of the time. I stay to myself out of my volition. I agree that people are problematic and selfish. I have no reason to talk to or interact with them. I honestly enjoy being alone
 
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Roseate

Mage
Mar 24, 2021
555
I get in control by organizing my room and making it look nice. I can't stand a mess. Messes give me a headache and I can't think straight. I also get in control by suppressing my emotions. I don't even know what I'm feeling most of the time. I stay to myself out of my volition. I agree that people are problematic and selfish. I have no reason to talk to or interact with them. I honestly enjoy being alone
But it can get so lonely being alone so much. I'm like at a point where I just want to find me a good small group of friends that aren't assholes.
 
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Throwawayacc3

Throwawayacc3

Freedom
Mar 4, 2024
1,385
Get in the car and drive around "practicing" singing and scream singing. I'm going to blow my vocal cords at some point because I'm doing the screams out of pure pain (with aweful technique - I'd be surprised if they'll last 3 years) but it's not like life is hunky dory. Ironic that when I had a scream coach he said I learned quick and my vocal coach said my moving around the scale was unusual for someone who's never sung.

lol - all that pent up anxiety and wanting to be left alone. Art teachers saying my art was bad and putting me off it and now people like my art after not doing it for 15+ years.

Just copium - trying to whittle away each day.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
I don't really, I just keep pretending.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
I used to cope by looking for control via punishing myself and suppressing my emotions. The thing is, there is no control, just the illusion of it. I'm now trying to work towards being more adaptable and I'm trying to teach myself to just go with the flow.
 
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ultrasharpy123456

Wizard
Aug 18, 2022
636
venting on my own discord server where I absolutely alone and meditation and deep breathing. lots of meditation and deep breathing. so much meditation and deep breathing. I also try to revise any trauma I've ever had. That way I don't have to relive nightmares constantly every single day.