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agony1996
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- Jul 8, 2024
- 61
I have a deadline to ctb and it's getting closer but I am absolutely terrified.
I know I can not continue living, isolated in my house for the last six months, for fear of seeing anyone, just buried away in my emotional pain, suffering day in and day out, feeling all sorts of emotions from sad, lonely, angry and petrified.
This pain is killing me and just when I think that it couldn't get any worse it does. How much pain can a human being take. I can't anymore but like I said I'm so scared, scared at the actual act of dying, the moment I stop breathing, the moment I go unconscious. I keep imagining myself in a coffin and it freaks me out, what if I'm still alive and they put me in the coffin.
I know I have to end my pain but I'm so scared how can I get over that fear? It's paralyzing.
I know I can not continue living, isolated in my house for the last six months, for fear of seeing anyone, just buried away in my emotional pain, suffering day in and day out, feeling all sorts of emotions from sad, lonely, angry and petrified.
This pain is killing me and just when I think that it couldn't get any worse it does. How much pain can a human being take. I can't anymore but like I said I'm so scared, scared at the actual act of dying, the moment I stop breathing, the moment I go unconscious. I keep imagining myself in a coffin and it freaks me out, what if I'm still alive and they put me in the coffin.
I know I have to end my pain but I'm so scared how can I get over that fear? It's paralyzing.