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Thatdude
Life is temporary, death is permanent
- Sep 26, 2019
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One of my problems is I simply don't have a reason to live, and I hate my life. And every avenue I am looking at for the future, I hate. Like it's nothing I can't do, but I'm asking myself why will I go to work at a job for several decades. I ask myself how am I going to curb my loneliness. And so on.
Like when I was growing up, I wanted to be someone that made a difference. Someone who would do great stuff, and remembered. Like we all know Leonardo Da Vinci, Tesla, Newton, and many of the other greats are. Because the greater the impact someone has had on humanity. They tend to be remembered for a greater period of time.
But over the last decade, I came to the conclusion that much of being like them comes down to luck. It's about knowing the right people, being born in the right family, having the resources to do whatever to start with, or having the support to do whatever. And I don't think I have any of above. The more I researched into it, for every Da Vinci. There is hundreds who didn't make it, and many of them are much more mentally able.
Like for me to make it, I wouldn't only have to figure out several solutions to life long problems. This being making a revolutionary product or some revolutionary discovery. I would need to be in the right place. So if it was a revolutionary discovery, realistically I would need to be with a PHD and working at a major university to get the recognition. And if it's making a revolutionary product, that would mean I would need know the investors that would invest, lawyers to protect the work, and others to help upscale the production. It would also mean on both that I would need the raw resources to figure whatever out, and so on.
And because it's stupid to put all your eggs in 1 basket so to speak (I believe this is why we know about Da Vinci). I looked into philosophy. But anything anyone will remember you for, I don't know of anyone who has made anything outside of ancient Greece. Like there is things like 6 sigma and what not. But, no one is going to remember the person who made that. In fact, I doubt anyone who studies that knows who made it first.
Any case, I mostly gave up. Like I will keep trying until I die. But I have serious doubts I will help humanity in any great way, and in 300+ years it wouldn't matter that I existed.
So my question to you is how do you find your reason to live?
NOTE: I don't have a spouse, and I don't have kids. I live with my parents, but I do have several degrees. I'm high functioning, so living with my parents at this time is my best option. There is pros and cons to this. I'm able to try things and invent things. But the con is, I'm seriously limited in my job prospects. Due to this I work for myself kinda. I make money off of the stock market, off of my 3D printer, some coding, and a few other things. (so note that I'm not sitting around have having a pity party)
Like when I was growing up, I wanted to be someone that made a difference. Someone who would do great stuff, and remembered. Like we all know Leonardo Da Vinci, Tesla, Newton, and many of the other greats are. Because the greater the impact someone has had on humanity. They tend to be remembered for a greater period of time.
But over the last decade, I came to the conclusion that much of being like them comes down to luck. It's about knowing the right people, being born in the right family, having the resources to do whatever to start with, or having the support to do whatever. And I don't think I have any of above. The more I researched into it, for every Da Vinci. There is hundreds who didn't make it, and many of them are much more mentally able.
Like for me to make it, I wouldn't only have to figure out several solutions to life long problems. This being making a revolutionary product or some revolutionary discovery. I would need to be in the right place. So if it was a revolutionary discovery, realistically I would need to be with a PHD and working at a major university to get the recognition. And if it's making a revolutionary product, that would mean I would need know the investors that would invest, lawyers to protect the work, and others to help upscale the production. It would also mean on both that I would need the raw resources to figure whatever out, and so on.
And because it's stupid to put all your eggs in 1 basket so to speak (I believe this is why we know about Da Vinci). I looked into philosophy. But anything anyone will remember you for, I don't know of anyone who has made anything outside of ancient Greece. Like there is things like 6 sigma and what not. But, no one is going to remember the person who made that. In fact, I doubt anyone who studies that knows who made it first.
Any case, I mostly gave up. Like I will keep trying until I die. But I have serious doubts I will help humanity in any great way, and in 300+ years it wouldn't matter that I existed.
So my question to you is how do you find your reason to live?
NOTE: I don't have a spouse, and I don't have kids. I live with my parents, but I do have several degrees. I'm high functioning, so living with my parents at this time is my best option. There is pros and cons to this. I'm able to try things and invent things. But the con is, I'm seriously limited in my job prospects. Due to this I work for myself kinda. I make money off of the stock market, off of my 3D printer, some coding, and a few other things. (so note that I'm not sitting around have having a pity party)
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