Lullaby
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- Mar 9, 2022
- 650
One of my instructors at my training had constantly mispronounced my name since I arrived.
I'm a really quiet person, so I brushed it off at first. I only have four letters in my name, it's not hard to say at all, but it definitely happens. The other instructor would correct him whenever he would do this.
But it keeps happening, it makes me feel like crap it It sucks putting myself back out there in the world and have this happen, when I'm already struggling so bad. Its such a small thing but it really makes me feel insignificant.
There were some new students who joined the other day, and it happened again. It was embarrassing being called over to help them out by a completely wrong name.
On top of that, there's another girl who works there and helps out who doesn't even know my name. She'll just go "Hey, lady!" Like, really? At the end of the day, one of the other girls wanted to thank me for helping, and she asked for my name. This other girl just shrugged and made a face because she didn't know…
When I'm already feeling like crap and without a sense of belonging, this stuff really only reaffirms my negative thoughts because it's actually playing out in front of me.
I'm trying to speak up for myself more about this, because I know it'll just get me angry and I'll have an episode in front of these people.
I'm a really quiet person, so I brushed it off at first. I only have four letters in my name, it's not hard to say at all, but it definitely happens. The other instructor would correct him whenever he would do this.
But it keeps happening, it makes me feel like crap it It sucks putting myself back out there in the world and have this happen, when I'm already struggling so bad. Its such a small thing but it really makes me feel insignificant.
There were some new students who joined the other day, and it happened again. It was embarrassing being called over to help them out by a completely wrong name.
On top of that, there's another girl who works there and helps out who doesn't even know my name. She'll just go "Hey, lady!" Like, really? At the end of the day, one of the other girls wanted to thank me for helping, and she asked for my name. This other girl just shrugged and made a face because she didn't know…
When I'm already feeling like crap and without a sense of belonging, this stuff really only reaffirms my negative thoughts because it's actually playing out in front of me.
I'm trying to speak up for myself more about this, because I know it'll just get me angry and I'll have an episode in front of these people.