how do you diassociate?

[zizzou]

How do you diassociate from your self? Just leave the lights on with nobody home? I just dont want to be me right now/anymore.

 

[slitwristsbleedcold]

i wish i knew how as well, sob

 

[wheelsonthebus]

24/7/366 babyyyy

It's a low level for me at all times, but if I don't sleep for a few days and add some stress then there's a good chance of having a full depersonalized state for at least an hour. Other than that.... if you can't develop PTSD naturally at home, store-bought is fine!

 

[LastNite]

You can't do it on command sadly. I remember one day I had something like it. I dont know what it was exactly. I just know that day was terrible like it put me on edge. I came back home from school all tired. Slept then woke up feeling all weird and seeing weird visuals. All noises were mumbled as well. It lasted for a few minutes then I woke up again and It was school time again.

I liked it to be honest even though I have no idea what it was. I heard tho that if you take enough Ketamine you could dissociate fully but risky and not good for you long term.

 

[BrainSplatter]

How do you diassociate from your self? Just leave the lights on with nobody home? I just dont want to be me right now/anymore.

Most of the time I'm not even aware that I'm disassociating I'll unconsciously just do it I've been doing it since young but yeah it's like you disconnect - separate your thoughts from your body and withdraw into your mind or you could take some dissociative drugs

 

[zizzou]

24/7/366 babyyyy

It's a low level for me at all times, but if I don't sleep for a few days and add some stress then there's a good chance of having a full depersonalized state for at least an hour. Other than that.... if you can't develop PTSD naturally at home, store-bought is fine!

I got the ptsds, the ptsds! My ocd wont let me let it go. to fight it I compulsively think of how ill kill myself. If I dont sleep it gets worse. Wish I could just be in a coma til I die

 

[vig919]

Masking is my standard operating procedy

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

As someone with a severe dissociative disorder, it ain't always what the media portrays. You are aware, but it's almost like a layer of fog. I regularly hurt myself of accident or forget to eat and drink, only realizing during a sudden moment of clarity in which the sensations are VERY overwhelming. It is not fun. There is no way to make it fun. You can't just "not be aware" unless you mean dissociative catatonia, and that... just isn't possible to mimic outside of certain drugs.

My answer from a similar thread!

 

[venerated-vader]

It's my default when i'm stressed and it isn't something you can induce on a whim. I'm fully aware in the moment, like that I'm typing this, but if you ask me what I was up to a day ago, I'll have trouble remembering the details. Both in telling you the things I've done and the way I felt, or how long ago these things happened. It's like wading through molasses to get to reality, and oftentimes I don't feel like I'm really here. Which might sound great if the alternative is acute emotional distress, but it really sucks when you can't snap your fingers and 'come back'. I feel like this alllllll the time, it is maddening.

 

[wheelsonthebus]

It's my default when i'm stressed and it isn't something you can induce on a whim. I'm fully aware in the moment, like that I'm typing this, but if you ask me what I was up to a day ago, I'll have trouble remembering the details. Both in telling you the things I've done and the way I felt, or how long ago these things happened. It's like wading through molasses to get to reality, and oftentimes I don't feel like I'm really here. Which might sound great if the alternative is acute emotional distress, but it really sucks when you can't snap your fingers and 'come back'. I feel like this alllllll the time, it is maddening.

Potatooooes and molasses

I got the ptsds, the ptsds! My ocd wont let me let it go. to fight it I compulsively think of how ill kill myself. If I dont sleep it gets worse. Wish I could just be in a coma til I die

Yeah I can't sleep every night because of intrusive memories. It's like the inbred child of flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. You know when you're in the shower or whatever and you're like "aw man, that's what I should have said in that argument!" Ok that but it's 2 am, every night, and I'm like "Wow! That was super fucked up and there was nothing I could do about it!" 20 times in a row. I knock myself out with gabapentin and hydroxazine. The alternative to it is a low level dissociative state for me, but it's lacking any emotion or stress, but also no motivation or even urgency about important things. It's nuts.

 

[Jan1193]

Idk if that can name dissociate, but specially this days where de4th desiree and suicidal troughts came back to me, I imagine a Lot, a Lot of ways that I could die from a moment to another without CBT myself. This is my second relapse on cronical depression since my mother pass away in 2022. I think most of the time in just die to the top of feeling like a counciousness trapped in a body, not a girl, not myself, not a human. Just a soul asking in a very shy and lack way to get free of this life. Asking to the universe or whatever would ear because I don't believe in god since she is gone. Espiritually, I feel completely alone. I just imagine if I desire with all my soul, one day soon I'll be death just the way of my mother was, and sometimes, I have fantasies about terminal cancer even if will be painfull. That's how much I care for myself now

 

[zizzou]

My answer from a similar thread!

Something very traumatic happened to me and im slowly coming out of the fog but I want it back. Ive had suicidal episodes where I just go cold, get out of my body and I only come back when I cant immediately find something to hurt myself with

Potatooooes and molasses
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Yeah I can't sleep every night because of intrusive memories. It's like the inbred child of flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. You know when you're in the shower or whatever and you're like "aw man, that's what I should have said in that argument!" Ok that but it's 2 am, every night, and I'm like "Wow! That was super fucked up and there was nothing I could do about it!" 20 times in a row. I knock myself out with gabapentin and hydroxazine. The alternative to it is a low level dissociative state for me, but it's lacking any emotion or stress, but also no motivation or even urgency about important things. It's nuts.

Intrusive memories, thats what it is. I cant sleep without being really tired/ drunk