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c.c

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May 3, 2025
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Aside from the nightmare we see while being awake..
is there any way to make your nightmare less intense? Forget them?
I have cptsd and i have seen nightmares my whole life about running from a rapist
And since last year it has gone WORST.
I remember nightmares from 2016,2017,2019,2023,2024 and currently i am seeing nightmares EVERYDAY. Before it was alternative day but as the day of meeting my molester is approaching..the frequency, the intensity, the variety and how much they are reflecting my fear and real life is just killing me.

How do you even deal with all these nightmares??
 
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kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
365
That sounds terrible. Do you have anything slightly comforting you can keep around you for when you wake up from these nightmares? A plushie or soft blanket and keeping a water bottle near you might be nice. You can have a playlist of songs that comfort you that you can play when you wake up. Wish you the best
 
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c.c

Student
May 3, 2025
130
That sounds terrible. Do you have anything slightly comforting you can keep around you for when you wake up from these nightmares? A plushie or soft blanket and keeping a water bottle near you might be nice. You can have a playlist of songs that comfort you that you can play when you wake up. Wish you the best
Well, if it is too intense and really close to reality i just bang my head on wall and curse everyone from preventing me from dying..
 
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kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
365
Well, if it is too intense and really close to reality i just bang my head on wall and curse everyone from preventing me from dying..
I understand. I don't want to minimize your suffering. I used to get unbearable nightmares about the same thing and I've just dissociated so hard to the point that i can't even feel the fear anymore. But I can't really recommend forcing yourself to heavily dissociate unless you want to
 
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c.c

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May 3, 2025
130
I understand. I don't want to minimize your suffering. I used to get unbearable nightmares about the same thing and I've just dissociated so hard to the point that i can't even feel the fear anymore. But I can't really recommend forcing yourself to heavily dissociate unless you want to
I have dissociated for a long time actually but the nightmares are getting worse in the way that it just no longer only about running,hinding,seeing my parents and everyone neglect me in front my molester, being molested...now it's like more in detail? Like now i get stuck in long dreams even if it's just an hour where i am trying to be with crowd, tryna run from him or just in very depth get raped like i can feel being raped? Like hurt part physically...
 
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kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
365
I have dissociated for a long time actually but the nightmares are getting worse in the way that it just no longer only about running,hinding,seeing my parents and everyone neglect me in front my molester, being molested...now it's like more in detail? Like now i get stuck in long dreams even if it's just an hour where i am trying to be with crowd, tryna run from him or just in very depth get raped like i can feel being raped? Like hurt part physically...
Yeah I know about physically feeling it and it's terrible. like why. we're being tortured. nightmare while awake, nightmare while sleeping. I'm really sorry. i guess it's good for you to process it by talking about it like this, so it can get out of your system and hopefully the nightmares slowly turn less detailed
 
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c.c

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May 3, 2025
130
Yeah I know about physically feeling it and it's terrible. like why. we're being tortured. nightmare while awake, nightmare while sleeping. I'm really sorry. i guess it's good for you to process it by talking about it like this, so it can get out of your system and hopefully the nightmares slowly turn less detailed
That's the thing i know that my nightmares are about to turn worst than ever after meeting that piece of shit and i really can't do this anymore..like i literally sleep at 5am so that when i wake up from a nightmare it's atlest day time...
 
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kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
365
That's the thing i know that my nightmares are about to turn worst than ever after meeting that piece of shit and i really can't do this anymore..like i literally sleep at 5am so that when i wake up from a nightmare it's atlest day time...
yeah waking up in the day time is so much better. i also sleep around 5am. i gotta go sleep right now actually. I'm sorry you have to go through this. let me know if you need to talk any time
 
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Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
462
If I have nightmares, I write them down and maybe even talk about them with my therapist
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
209
I have the same diagnosis as you
I am so afraid of my nightmares that I cant get no sleep
my nightmares are so stressful that I am constantly exhausted
 
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c.c

Student
May 3, 2025
130
I have the same diagnosis as you
I am so afraid of my nightmares that I cant get no sleep
my nightmares are so stressful that I am constantly exhausted
It makes being alive even WORSE. I saw a DIGUSTING dream about myself. I am trying ctb methods today ...i am so done with this.
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,261
Aside from the nightmare we see while being awake..
is there any way to make your nightmare less intense? Forget them?
I have cptsd and i have seen nightmares my whole life about running from a rapist
And since last year it has gone WORST.
I remember nightmares from 2016,2017,2019,2023,2024 and currently i am seeing nightmares EVERYDAY. Before it was alternative day but as the day of meeting my molester is approaching..the frequency, the intensity, the variety and how much they are reflecting my fear and real life is just killing me.

How do you even deal with all these nightmares??
I also have C-PTSD and all my nightmares currently are about my ex(?, sorry I'm not sure what to referance him as right now due to lack of answers and closure) being abused and of him cheating on me. I feel like my nightmares lessen, go away or get less intense if I get answers. Originally the C-PTSD was caused by sexual assault as a toddler and kid, but those nightmares related to that aren't that bad anymore ever since I got an answer as to why that ever happened to me. I struggle now mostly with abuse that has happened to me as an adult because I never got an answer to why it happened and I don't fully understand it so it keeps bothering me subconciously by appearing as trauma nightmares over and over. It sucks, trying still to get answers but not much luck. No idea why I'm not given any answers.
 
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JesiBel

protoTYPE:4rp14
Dec 5, 2024
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I can't stop my nightmares; they're intense and very violent. I see people suffering and dying horribly. If relatives appear (still alive or not), they're even more terrifying.

It may sound bad, but they can be a source of "inspiration," captured in a drawing or written text (story, poetry, song). Take the general concept of the nightmare and transform it into something. So I realized that the "theme" of several of them is recurrent. Perhaps they can even be used for "self-analysis."
 
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penguinl0v3s

Wait for Me 💙
Nov 1, 2023
845
Prazosin? Sorry for the basic advice if you've tried it already.
 
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Dejected 55

Experienced
May 7, 2025
278
I can't remember the last time I had a nightmare. Probably when I was a kid. The scariest things I used to dream of weren't monsters or killers... but natural disasters. Things you can't fight. If there's a massive typhoon and tidal wave that floods an area, there isn't much you can do. Same for earthquake, etc. Floor and giant inescapable waves used to be my worst nightmare.

But, these days... since I want to die anyway... I don't have nightmares, because a nightmare where I died would be a heavenly dream.
 
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hereornot

hereornot

Freedom
May 16, 2024
270
Today my nightmare is being awake
 
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