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- Apr 27, 2019
- 95
I'm really struggling right now. I gotta hold out for a few more weeks though. I can't ctb here.
Cause stupid thing is I just don't like being alone alone. I've only recently lost everybody. Had a girl that I've been speaking to for the better part of a year. I spoke to her virtually everyday, she helped me not feel alone, we started dating (big mistake), she cheated on me, spoke with her for the final time about last week. Then the only other person, who honest to God is and always will be the best person I've ever met in my life, just messaged me after two days of ignoring me to leave her alone. I'm down to 0. I'm literally living for game of thrones now. I just hate that I feel I need somebody in my life.I cope by listening to Tool songs and reading posts on Sanctioned Suicide. Funny thing? I'm completely alone and don't feel lonely. What is making you feel lonely?
Cause stupid thing is I just don't like being alone alone. I've only recently lost everybody. Had a girl that I've been speaking to for the better part of a year. I spoke to her virtually everyday, she helped me not feel alone, we started dating (big mistake), she cheated on me, spoke with her for the final time about last week. Then the only other person, who honest to God is and always will be the best person I've ever met in my life, just messaged me after two days of ignoring me to leave her alone. I'm down to 0. I'm literally living for game of thrones now. I just hate that I feel I need somebody in my life.
Cause stupid thing is I just don't like being alone alone. I've only recently lost everybody. Had a girl that I've been speaking to for the better part of a year. I spoke to her virtually everyday, she helped me not feel alone, we started dating (big mistake), she cheated on me, spoke with her for the final time about last week. Then the only other person, who honest to God is and always will be the best person I've ever met in my life, just messaged me after two days of ignoring me to leave her alone. I'm down to 0. I'm literally living for game of thrones now. I just hate that I feel I need somebody in my life.
I'm sorry. That's a pain I can't imagine.I'm sorry. I actually do know what that's like. Breaking up is the second most horrible pain I've ever experienced. First place goes to losing a daughter. It takes a long time to get back to normal.
Ive had it with most people haha. I really usually dont like most people, but it just sucks that there's someone out there that I want to be around and they (rightfully so) don't want me.I wish I could help but I love being alone. Whenever I don't have to be around other people it's awesome.
I know I probably shouldn't have even replied.
I like watching tv or coming here or just being online.
I don't like going to see movies in the theater anymore because it means I will have to be around people. I've had enough of them. ;)
Sorry for what you're going through. Glad to see I'm not the only one waiting for game of thrones before I CTB..Cause stupid thing is I just don't like being alone alone. I've only recently lost everybody. Had a girl that I've been speaking to for the better part of a year. I spoke to her virtually everyday, she helped me not feel alone, we started dating (big mistake), she cheated on me, spoke with her for the final time about last week. Then the only other person, who honest to God is and always will be the best person I've ever met in my life, just messaged me after two days of ignoring me to leave her alone. I'm down to 0. I'm literally living for game of thrones now. I just hate that I feel I need somebody in my life.
I got that 50% down. I've been struggling eating lately.I contemplate suicide and eat food.
Yeah, after GOT is over I'm leaving to somewhere where I can smoke in peace. I came into a sequence of unfortunate events last night where I got busted with a joint by some cops. I'm in Utah so they're not too kind about cannabis over here. Got out of being arrested luckily unlike most people here. Said he smelled marijuana and I told him it's cause I'd been smoking it, just trying to relax. Got it confiscated and slapped with a ticket. Gonna have to buy more tonight.Yup. Weed is what gets me through
I might be getting cat tomorrow someone is rehoming him.Working, gaming and my cats. I'm alone all my life, no friends and never a gf.
I don't, I self isolate further.
Eating is a funny thing when it comes to depression or feeling low. I struggle to STOP eating instead.I got that 50% down. I've been struggling eating lately.
I second this but it's all I've ever known anyway.I don't, I self isolate further.
Pornhub
My favorites are Lauren Phillips and Mia Malkova
That said, I like being active in reddit, and here
I'm sorry. I actually do know what that's like. Breaking up is the second most horrible pain I've ever experienced. First place goes to losing a daughter. It takes a long time to get back to normal.
Sorry for what you're going through. Glad to see I'm not the only one waiting for game of thrones before I CTB..
Lauren phillips is tha truth, freaky a$$ fire crotch. And she loves it up the A.