How do you cope?

[Shewaitsforme]

Just endless days and nights of pure nothingness. How do people live months on end wanting to die but still be "alive" its getting too much for me. I just spend each day in my flat moving between the living room and my bed, cig, small amount of food and fluids, on here apart from that nothing. Trying to cling on to something but i dont know what that is, suicide at least brings an end. I now have very little money, enough to buy what i need but if i cant go through with it then ill be completly broke thats whats stopping me. I wish my body would just give up fighting!

 

[Armadillo]

Exercise, music, wasting time, surfing the web, drugs.

That's what I use to cope.

I wish I had more drugs...

 

[Lady black]

Sleeping as much as possible

 

[TheVVitch]

Opiates

 

[Midnight]

By going to work ... This takes a huge slice out of the time i'd likely spend being suicidal. And by wasting that earned money afterwards. That's pretty much the only coping i got.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

By going to work ... This takes a huge slice out of the time i'd likely spend being suicidal. And by wasting that earned money afterwards. That's pretty much the only coping i got.

I work fir the NHS and they have me on sick leave. Untill the doctors signs me off as capable to go through an investigation that coukd take weeks im not allowed to work, ill probably get fired anyway but right now ive just got to wait it out. Sucks!!

 

[Letting Go]

I can only temporarily cope with intoxicants, music, video games, sports, going for long walks outside, and going online. Long-lasting happiness is not possible given my circumstances.

Work doesn't alleviate my suicidal thoughts because it's a job that I can do while thinking about my hopeless situation, what I am missing out on, and other deflating thoughts.

 

[sadsoul]

I cope by completing goals. I set goals and milestones. Typically I have very short term, short term, mid term, long term, and very long term goals.

Very Short term - 1 week - 1 month

Short term - 1 months - 6 months

Midterm - 6 months - 18 months

Long term 18 months - 36 months

Very long term - 36 months - 60 months

I don't set goals for longer than 5 years.

Current goals

very short term goals - Recover from physical injuries, increase nutrition uptake, purchase white board, schedule appointment with GI specialist

Short term - Finish 3 credit Social Work class, try a couple new green teas, get HAM license

Midterm - Finish all social work preqs, find a workable solution to my anxiety, fix problems with my marriage, find fixes to my physical health problems

Long term - Obtain bachelors degree in social work,

Very long term - Get to a point where I don't need to be in therapy anymore.

These are just some examples. I have many more written down. The more of these I do, the stronger I become.

Damn, so much ambition. I hope you reach all those goals :)

My only goal is ctb lol i don't want to have a future

 

[Deafsn0w]

coma

my only life goal is ctb

 

[Rose]

My coping method used to be to daydream all the time. This has become harder and harder to do without breaking down recently.
Now I just watch shows and videos a whole lot, listen to music, and sleep as much as possible. Get as drunk/high as I can whenever resources are available as well.

I'm constantly falling apart, distractions are all I have

 

[worldexploder]

I really don't cope. I drink when I can, do some emotional eating etc. SS helps a lot. I try to get my mind off things by watching YouTube.

 

[marcelfoz]

I totally agree. Its so hard to keep going and the way i found to keep myself distracted was drugs. mostly weed bc its cheap and easy to find. But im always trying what i can, and i really, really feel like it helps me a lot to deal w shit. Most of the times u r so into the high u worry abt nothing. Now it has been my second day without drugs (only cigars) after one year and some months using almost e every day and ive never been so suicidal, i even made this account bc its so hard to deal w shit without some coping mechanism. The worst part is i can realize drugs made me an addicted and fucked up a lot in my life (like college) but i want is to take something or ctb.

 

[Xerxes]

Going to work and riding my bike. Also visiting this community and Reddit. Fill my life with distractions so I don't have time to think.

 

[TiredHorse]

Just endless days and nights of pure nothingness. How do people live months on end wanting to die but still be "alive" its getting too much for me. I just spend each day in my flat moving between the living room and my bed, cig, small amount of food and fluids, on here apart from that nothing. Trying to cling on to something but i dont know what that is, suicide at least brings an end. I now have very little money, enough to buy what i need but if i cant go through with it then ill be completly broke thats whats stopping me. I wish my body would just give up fighting!

This sounds like my life right now.

 

[Toenditall]

Use to be playing guitar, drums and going to work but none of those help anymore what helps is knowing it will all be over this time next week and I will finally be at peace

 

[Dani Paradox]

I don't cope. I used to be able to somewhat. But there comes a point where you just short circuit and you can't cope anymore. SS is the only thing that keeps me going at this point.

"You can only run on empty for so long before you blow a head gasket." -Dani Paradox

That's my new favorite line.

 

[ChickenAndPotatoes]

I really don't cope. I drink when I can, do some emotional eating etc. SS helps a lot. I try to get my mind off things by watching YouTube.

Same same.

 

[EndofMyRope]

TV. Lots and lots of tv. I don't leave my bed most of the time. Can't even remember the last time I left the house.

 

[tommyhalpinkelly]

TV. Lots and lots of tv. I don't leave my bed most of the time. Can't even remember the last time I left the house.

I used to enjoy TV and eating as a child but now my mind is too bad for that shit.

 

[Snee]

acting like everything is fine

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

SS helps.
Work helps a lot, albeit not today specifically.
I found a great time killer: rolling cigarettes. I buy like three packs of tobacco, papers, filters. I throw the tobacco into a blender I bought specifically for this purpose because separating the block of tobacco apart with my hands is an unpleasant pain in the ass. I take it all outside, put some music on and start churning out cancer sticks.
Practice guitar a bit here and there.
Playing gta 5 as a cabbie/stock broker.

All in all, I'm just waiting for the surgery and trying my damnest to ignore the fact I lost 14 years (and counting) to epilepsy. Once/if I'm free, I don't know what I'll do. It'll be a scary new world. If I don't, ctb is the alternative.

 

[EndofMyRope]

I used to enjoy TV and eating as a child but now my mind is too bad for that shit.

My mind is all over the place today... I'm incredibly restless and nothing seems to help.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

I'm not coping lol that's why I'm on this forum

 

[Throwaway563078]

I don't. I used to like reading and watching movies but I can't even do that.

 

[pushka]

My coping methods are gradually losing their reliability and no longer seem to distract me from drifting thoughts and urges for the inevitable. I still exercise (which will occupy my mind during the 1-2 hours in which I'm engaging in it but as soon as I am finished it's back to normal) and I listen to music or watch videos online. Recently I have come back onto all the ctb forums and servers because there seems to be nothing to fully distract myself so I may as well embrace it

 

[skitliv]

Smoking, drinking and listening to music I suppose, I used to read a lot and watch films but nowadays Im useless most of the time

 

[OkTotti]

Being on SS... wondering if should place my order with A. for N.

I'm not coping well... bored out of my mind

 

[Over it]

Working,
but apart from that... occasionally alcohol which ends up being a vicious cycle

 

[Fucking loving it]

Sleeping. Tv. SS.

 

[loz]

food, sleep, drugs