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Roseate
Arcanist
- Mar 24, 2021
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I know everyone on here struggle with suicidal thoughts or ideation but how do you guys cope when it all gets too much?
Thanks. Does it ever get to a point where none of that works? And your brain just actively try to like work overtime against you?Talk to people, think about how I can be of use to others, listen to music while pacing around my room, cry or hit myself.
Thanks, it's just hard and I'm going to assume you know what I mean, sometimes it seems like what people say don't matter as much but what my mind tells me. Like it knows me more than anyone and if it says it, well it must be true.I take a walk and try to see and hear things that others would miss (today I noticed a dead raccoon under a bush... that wasn't great, usually I find nicer things)
Sometimes I try to find someone to verbally tell me that I'm not unwanted and useless and irrelevant. That takes a little fishing...I don't have a lot of people to go to for that.
And yes music or reading for me too.
How do you do that? Block everything?I can't even cry anymore, because that would hurt too much. I've decided I don't want to be want to be in pain anymore. Even if that means blocking everything out. I'm pretty good at not being miserable about it, the pain is not gonna be how I go out. I am choosing to leave this world unaffected.
What is stimfapping?Unironically Stimfapping for 2-3 days straight every 2 weeks
nothing else makes me lose myself enough to escape depression and gain joy from anything
What is stimfapping?
Oh wow. That's extreme. I'm clean edge tho besides the occasional alcohol.Masturbating on stimulant drugs, I do it high on meth.