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Suizid

Suizid

i don't want to be here
Sep 17, 2025
70
I haven't Connected with a human being in a deep way since many years. I can feel my body getting sick because of it. My left eye is twitching constantly. I have had pain in my heart and stomach for years.

Well everything has 2 Sides. Because i have no one in my life, i'm able to think alot about my life and what i do and don't like to do. I love Bikepacking. Driving to remote locations with a tent and Camping without talking to anyone. I can just be myself. Just me and Nature. After i come back home i feel energized. I feel like a different Person for 1-2 weeks. I used to love watching every movie i could find, but doom scrolling is really getting in the way of that.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,167
I don't. I'm trying to die to escape this loneliness
 
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Lycoris

Lycoris

a living ghost
Mar 9, 2023
11
I don't really have any friends either, just people that I've had history with that I catchup with from time to time as a coping mechanism so I can maintain some sort of barebones support system. I really admire that you still have things to come back to that you can reliably enjoy like nature. Maybe its worth holding onto that as long as you feel you're able to.
 
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ABadPerson

ABadPerson

something's off | internet black goop
Oct 24, 2025
60
I don't really, and I just don't care about anything else in life outside a certain type of human connection so I just mentally break down quite often.
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
535
I wasn't coping well. Thankfully I made friends with some people.
 
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gunmetalblue11

gunmetalblue11

Member
Oct 31, 2025
6
I have practically 0 social contact with people IRL or online for months now. Only when necessary, like my psychiatrist appointments where I am forced to go. Honestly i'm surprised with how well I deal, I hardly feel 'lonely' most of the time. I think it only really hits when I see something entertaining, funny or a subject to debate about and I say to myself, i'd love to talk about that with someone. Then i realise there is absolutely nobody. I then move on to something else. Denial is powerful.
 
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