orange.ju1c3
New Member
- Jan 7, 2026
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I'm 19 and a trans guy. When I was in my early - mid teens, I didn't really struggle with being trans. Currently, I feel like I'm suffering with it. I don't see myself in myself at all. I imagined that once i finally started transitioning, that it would come together. I would be happy and euphoric. I haven't felt this shitty about myself in my entire life. I'm finally getting to experience a cis teenage man's life, and i fucking hate it. Not because of the man aspect. It's because I am NOT a man. Everything masculine that I desperately wish I could be, I'm not. I cannot fight like my friends do, I'm too weak. I can't eat an entire plate of food all in one shot. I'm pretty short. I can barely bond with men. It's incredibly painful to deal with and it's leaving me to consider detransitioning. I would be incredibly unhappy, but I wonder if my life would be easier for me. I feel like I have to alter my personality and my inner self to be a man, and I've lost those in the past (nearly) 2 years spent as a man. I am completely lost.
