Venting how do i survive the stress?

[synthcadia]

i feel like i'm going to crumple into a ball from the amount of stress i'm under. i mean i'm already seeing some things, and i feel like i may spiral like the protagonist in black swan. like i had this weird mouth thing that went away but it was freaky.

and i'm anxious about the future. i gotta start thinking about law school, and tbh i just wanna be with my partner. i'm tired. i'm dissociating so badly. god i hate this life.