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Sleepdrifter
Student
- Jun 22, 2020
- 151
I've faced a lot of adversary over the last few years but also a few wins. When I score a victory it takes a lot of time, a lot of effort and definitely some luck. But instead of celebrating I don't just downplay it. I mess with it, play mind games, torture myself with it. I employ it to feel more helpless and worthless than ever. I'll fight every bit of positivity. It's really miserable to be this way. So why am I doing this to myself. What is motivating me to mess myself up like this. Especially when I'm doing better?