How do I stop displaying discomfort with my thoughts?

[down for the count]

My history has been such that I have had great difficulty dealing with social situations because I am self-conscious of my thoughts. I have been told many times that people can not see my thoughts. However, a dynamic has been built in which I feel anxious about what to do with my thoughts. That coupled with perhaps some elements of thought broadcasting has caused me to do things meekly with others responding as if I am telling them to police my thoughts. In effect, my belief that people can hear my thoughts has become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

How would I go about changing this dynamic? How could I not let people see that I am anxious about whether the thoughts I have is right?

 

[motel rooms]

Are you on antipsychotic meds?

 

[down for the count]

Yes, clozapine. My psychiatrist added risperdal a while back but stopped it because I thought it might have been giving me a fast heartbeat. But stopping it changed nothing.

 

[timf]

It might be possible to curb runaway thoughts by intentionally exercising control such as doing multiplication tables. Even if only for a short time, such an exercise of conscious control might help.

 

[motel rooms]

Yes, clozapine. My psychiatrist added risperdal a while back but stopped it because I thought it might have been giving me a fast heartbeat. But stopping it changed nothing.

What about other antipsychotics? Maybe something else might work. I know they often have many unpleasant side effects...

 

[down for the count]

I have an appointment in a few weeks. I will bring it up.