Help how do i not be found by my family when i ctb?

[virtualgf]

I know I'm going to kill myself eventually. I always imagined it'd be when I'm in my 30's or 20's at the earliest. I'm 18 now and I think I'd be fine if it happened within the next year. I'd want to go out peacefully like overdose in bed or in my sleep or something. idk. Ideally I'd die in some freak accident or get murdered. That way my family wouldn't feel guilty or as guilty compared to when I kill myself. SO that leaves me with this question: where should I die? I don't want anyone in my family to find me dead or even a random stranger. I'd like for the police to show up and just take me away or something. But if I overdose, it'd be hard to get the timing right to call them myself. What if they showed up before I even died? I saw one post on here where the guy planned on putting a note on his door to not come in and to just call the police. I guess that's something I could do but I live with my parents and I'd feel like if anyone saw that note on my door they'd try coming in anyways. I guess I could wait until I move out? idk. I was also wondering if SN is painful? I don't want to be in pain when I die..

Thanks

 

[mylastserenade]

Do it in a place where you can place a sign close or on the door, "Do not open, ive commited suicide, please call the police!". If your in the woods doing it you can put alot of signs up on trees in the area around you.

 

[Rn110bg101]

I have had this idea for a while now. Since I have to CTB at home the best way for me is putting a note to the door, stating that I've CTB and please do not enter, call the police.

I was also thinking of doing it in my bedroom so it's not in the common house space. That'll be an extra door.

If my mother still barges in with those notes… Well, I'll feel really bad, but there's nothing I can do, none of those doors have locks.

 

[Mthom2]

A hotel would be ideal, especially with a sign. Unless the house keepers don't speak your language and can't understand, I seriously doubt they'd brave opening the door.

 

[mylastserenade]

A hotel would be ideal, especially with a sign. Unless the house keepers don't speak your language and can't understand, I seriously doubt they'd brave opening the door.

The problem i see with hotels is that people come and go all hours of the day, what if you put it up and 2 min later someone walks by and sees the note?

 

[virtualgf]

I have had this idea for a while now. Since I have to CTB at home the best way for me is putting a note to the door, stating that I've CTB and please do not enter, call the police.

I was also thinking of doing it in my bedroom so it's not in the common house space. That'll be an extra door.

If my mother still barges in with those notes… Well, I'll feel really bad, but there's nothing I can do, none of those doors have locks.

idk im not sure that id want to do it in my room. then theyd pass my room every day and think about me. and maybe they wouldnt open my door. itd be a waste of a room if no one was able to use it. maybe id wait until i move out.

 

[Symbiote]

The problem i see with hotels is that people come and go all hours of the day, what if you put it up and 2 min later someone walks by and sees the note?

You just put a "Do Not Disturb" sign on the outside door, whenever the time comes for you to check out, housekeeping will knock on the door, eventually the hotel manager will open it up and force you out, but will see your corpse on the bed and then summon the police. Do this at a chain hotel, not some bed and breakfast, mom/pop shop, chain hotels have the money and resources to clean the room up and not traumatize anyone in the process.

 

[mylastserenade]

You just put a "Do Not Disturb" sign on the outside door, whenever the time comes for you to check out, housekeeping will knock on the door, eventually the hotel manager will open it up and force you out, but will see your corpse on the bed and then summon the police. Do this at a chain hotel, not some bed and breakfast, mom/pop shop, chain hotels have the money and resources to clean the room up and not traumatize anyone in the process.

True, didnt think about that.