How do I just accept the fact that nobody cares about me as much as I’d want?

[Siamese Believe]

I just keep trying, looking for something that isn't there. My family finds me to be a nuisance and I can't accept it and keep to myself.

I won't say that my death won't crush them because it will. But that's after death though, after death they'll care more about me. But while I'm here, they push me away.

But this is how these stories always tend to go right? Once someone finally frees themself, then it's could've, should've, would've. But it's too late.

They don't want me to talk about how I feel at all, they find it annoying. They say I complain too much.

It's so hard to accept that I have no one, sometimes I see myself as some Frankenstein monster.

 

[Baisley]

Sometimes even when we have people around us we feel alone. I have a family that cares and a daughter but I just want to CTB. I am sorry that you feel the way that you do. I really hope everything will get better for you family wise.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I just keep trying, looking for something that isn't there. My family finds me to be a nuisance and I can't accept it and keep to myself.

I won't say that my death won't crush them because it will. But that's after death though, after death they'll care more about me. But while I'm here, they push me away.

But this is how these stories always tend to go right? Once someone finally frees themself, then it's could've, should've, would've. But it's too late.

They don't want me to talk about how I feel at all, they find it annoying. They say I complain too much.

It's so hard to accept that I have no one, sometimes I see myself as some Frankenstein monster.

Do you think there's anything they could do that could make you change your mind?

 

[Forever Sleep]

If you know they're unlikely to change then, I suppose you could try to look for that connection elsewhere. Obviously while being careful. You don't want to get involved with some predator with ulterior motives.

But sometimes peers or people in similar situations to us may have more understanding of what we're going through. I think there are different types of love really. Some of them are more helpful than others.

I've tended to think that parents aren't always willing to see problems or weaknesses in their children because it kind of reflects badly on them. They may also believe that 'tough love' is better- if it worked on them. You can still love them but realise you need a different type of input to feel better.

I suppose for some people, that can come from a therapist- if they're lucky to find a good one. Most closer friendships I've had have been with people who are also struggling. We'd pretty much take it in turns to vent to one another. So, looking for understanding from another like, troubled soul can sometimes help.

You could maybe also try to see it that your family does in fact love you but they don't necessarily have the skills, understanding or patience to help you.