How do I hang on?

[Banquo501]

I am really struggling to hold off from ctb at the moment. I had planned on doing it over the weekend, but ended up backing out. But every single day is a tortuous grind at the moment, previously I've been able to distract myself from all these depressive and suicidal thoughts with video games or tv etc. But I cant focus on anything anymore, aside from the heartache and my lack of a future.

I want to hang on because this week would be a bad time for loved ones, certain dates fall this week etc, plus I know my mother will be alone until Thursday.

I just need to hang on for a couple more weeks, then I think I can get this done. What can I do?

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hey love..when u say "lack of a future", what do u mean?

 

[MysticPerception]

I am really struggling to hold off from ctb at the moment. I had planned on doing it over the weekend, but ended up backing out. But every single day is a tortuous grind at the moment, previously I've been able to distract myself from all these depressive and suicidal thoughts with video games or tv etc. But I cant focus on anything anymore, aside from the heartache and my lack of a future.

I want to hang on because this week would be a bad time for loved ones, certain dates fall this week etc, plus I know my mother will be alone until Thursday.

I just need to hang on for a couple more weeks, then I think I can get this done. What can I do?

I was in a very similar situation before I attempted. I'd say just try not to think about it. You're only going to stress yourself out thinking you can't leave even when you want to. Distractions don't work I know but just force yourself to do other things and occupy you're brain as best as you can.

 

[Banquo501]

I was in a very similar situation before I attempted. I'd say just try not to think about it. You're only going to stress yourself out thinking you can't leave even when you want to. Distractions don't work I know but just force yourself to do other things and occupy you're brain as best as you can.

I keep trying to just occupy my time, but I can't focus on anything it makes my skin crawl. And unfortunately I have to spend a lot of time just lying down and trying to sleep off migraines so often I'm just left with my thoughts which is really hard to cope with.

 

[MysticPerception]

I keep trying to just occupy my time, but I can't focus on anything it makes my skin crawl. And unfortunately I have to spend a lot of time just lying down and trying to sleep off migraines so often I'm just left with my thoughts which is really hard to cope with.

Not sure what you can do then. I guess you could try taking sleeping pills if you can and just sleep the time away. That might be suspicious though.

 

[Banquo501]

Hey love..when u say "lack of a future", what do u mean?

I have severe chronic migraines with several attacks a day. There doesn't seem to be any hope they will improve. I've been managing to put on a brave face for the last few years but I just can't see the point anymore.

Not sure what you can do then. I guess you could try taking sleeping pills if you can and just sleep the time away. That might be suspicious though.

Yeah, I was thinking similar.

 

[Lostandfound7]

I have severe chronic migraines with several attacks a day. There doesn't seem to be any hope they will improve. I've been managing to put on a brave face for the last few years but I just can't see the point anymore.

Oh man I'm so sorry to hear that..I used to get them every month or so n can't even imagine suffering with that every single day..my heart goes out to u
Maybe a dumb question. I only ask cux we have a migraine clinic here in NY..but have u tried a migraine specialist?..

 

[Banquo501]

Oh man I'm so sorry to hear that..I used to get them every month or so n can't even imagine suffering with that every single day..my heart goes out to u
Maybe a dumb question. I only ask cux we have a migraine clinic here in NY..but have u tried a migraine specialist?..

Yeah I've been through every treatment on the books. Some have worked at times but I'm at the stage now where nothing works and it's been that way for years now.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Damm..Including acupuncture?

 

[Banquo501]

Damm..Including acupuncture?

Yeah, Accupuncture was really nice actually, but didn't really help the migraines.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Wow..I'm so sorry..I cannot even begin to imagine..

 

[GinaIsReady]

I have severe chronic migraines with several attacks a day. There doesn't seem to be any hope they will improve.

I'm so sorry for your suffering. I don't blame you for wanting to ctb.