ThriveOrDie
We are already in hell
- Jul 11, 2019
- 449
If I am not quite ready to throw in the towel, how do I get people to take me seriously without being manipulative? I've asked my family for help. They know I want to die. My parents throw me a few crumbs here and there but they would really rather spend their money on traveling than helping me survive. I can't get government assistance because I don't have kids and I can't get disability because I have Lyme disease. It's pretty unlikely anyway and it takes forever. I need help now. I've been sick for 15 years, I'm not willing to wait it out much longer. I called a very well known "Christian" charity and they told me to read the bible and accused me of making bad choices when they knew absolutely nothing about my life. I've made good choices. I've treated my body very well for the last 15 years. I've never used drugs, alcohol, cigarettes etc. I've done everything in my power to get myself well. Gah!! It was like talking to a fucking robot! I feel like my problems are fixable but only with money which I don't have. It seems like the only way to get people to take you seriously is to do a fake suicide attempt. I can't live like this any more. I can't even have healthy relationships in my condition so I just pull away because I can't deal with other people's BS.