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I'm ready to ctb .
How do i gather the courage to ctb and overcome SI ? ANY TIPS would be welcomed tx .
How do i gather the courage to ctb and overcome SI ? ANY TIPS would be welcomed tx .
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The right methodI'm ready to ctb .
How do i gather the courage to ctb and overcome SI ? ANY TIPS would be welcomed tx .
It is hard to find the courage to go through wit it..I´ve been there a couple of times. The most important thing is that u really want to die it- if you still have doubt don´t do it..maybe that's partially the reason why u are hesitating not only the basic SI?I'm ready to ctb .
How do i gather the courage to ctb and overcome SI ? ANY TIPS would be welcomed tx .
Idk dude, I would personally off myself immediately if I asked my dad for a blowjob.That won't stop SI though
Haha I did that at work and now I must day because I can't pay rent and bills without workYou could theoretically embarrass yourself to such a colossal degree that the only reprieve from overwhelming discomfiture is suicide. Shit yourself in public, reveal all of your most perverted and deepest secrets to your family and friends, make a scene at work and promptly get fired, etc. Yes, these are some extreme measures, but suicide will seem immensely favourable by then.
Depends on the method. Like my number one method is jumping and I've heard to manipulate the SI is to do things like plan to jump on the count of 3, but jump when you get to 2... things like thatI saw someone said manipulate SI but i don't know how to do that exactly ..
I've thought of doing this sort of thing.You could theoretically embarrass yourself to such a colossal degree that the only reprieve from overwhelming discomfiture is suicide. Shit yourself in public, reveal all of your most perverted and deepest secrets to your family and friends, make a scene at work and promptly get fired, etc. Yes, these are some extreme measures, but suicide will seem immensely favourable by then.
Stress, anxiety, whatever, I don't give a modicum of fucks. I'm not concerned with my well-being as much as I used to be. Anything that helps strengthen my resolve to commit suicide is indeed good enough for me. You can never be rid of your SI, that's just wishful thinking. At most, you can suppress it. It's part of your programming and you cannot change the "source code" directly (although you can change the "hardware" via lobotomies ig). You can try and introduce drugs to counteract your SI, or have a quick method at hand, but their effects on minimizing SI are temporary and minuscule at best. You may ask then, "Why self-sabotage? What's the point?". An organism's SI is actually a function of its perceived reproduction potential. The more harmful behaviours and self-destructive behaviours you practice, the lower your PRP would be, which would translate to a weaker SI (or self-preservation instinct).This thread got really dark and scary all of a sudden. Your point of self sabotage is well meant and understandable. What a way to go though. The stress alone would be gruesome! Although I think the self hate and addiction to stress is what keeps us all here in a way. Sometimes you only feel alive when there is pain. Forcing yourself to get pushed out has been a little bit of my method as well. I try not to hurt people by doing it but it still happens. Fucked up a job. Ignored my lover. Don't connect with family. In the end I kinda just hurt myself. These things really do not help with SI itself though. That's a huge monster to get over. Makes me wonder why so many of us are still here and have not just CTB by now. I can understand the people in recovery threads and trying to find a connection I guess. Im glad there are people in recovery here. It makes me happy to see them trying to go forward. I would say the usual suspects for SI. Alcohol drugs pills tranqs quick method etc.
Yeah dont get me wrong. This life is full of hard shit to deal with. A quick method would be best. Or a method that you cant back out of. Pistol, jumping, pills, hanging, crushed to death. You still have to "commit" which is why its called "committing". I think some people here just arent ready for the darker stuff that other users are aware of or have witnessed first hand. The kids on here have it especially rough. Some of them but not all have not seen the pain in this world in full force. This doesnt mean thier reasons to CTB are any less. SI is a hell of a drug! Sadly not many will get that last one. LOLStress, anxiety, whatever, I don't give a modicum of fucks. I'm not concerned with my well-being as much as I used to be. Anything that helps strengthen my resolve to commit suicide is indeed good enough for me. You can never be rid of your SI, that's just wishful thinking. At most, you can suppress it. It's part of your programming and you cannot change the "source code" directly (although you can change the "hardware" via lobotomies ig). You can try and introduce drugs to counteract your SI, or have a quick method at hand, but their effects on minimizing SI are temporary and minuscule at best. You may ask then, "Why self-sabotage? What's the point?". An organism's SI is actually a function of its perceived reproduction potential. The more harmful behaviours and self-destructive behaviours you practice, the lower your PRP would be, which would translate to a weaker SI (or self-preservation instinct).
Theoretically, you can also try developing another instinct that would override your SI (e.g. altruism/mothering instinct), but the circumstances required to develop such are perhaps not attainable for many users here.