miserableforever
Arcanist
- Oct 23, 2020
- 488
I find people in general annoying and anxiety inducing. My social anxiety is so bad that I am at home most of the time, or run my errands quickly cause it's making me panicky. Also there's no desire to have friends. Am i the only one? Is this fixable?
It's not like I'm hateful, I'm just a content hermit. My boyfriend used to be the same, but he started doing more around others and he seems to enjoy it. We argue a lot these days over my bad depression issue and my self harming behavior. Sometimes I can't get out of bed cause depression paralyzes me. He doesn't let me leave the house at night cause he worries I might CTB. I told him a long time ago that's my end goal and my anxiety is killing me. I don't have insurance and can't get meds. I tried websites that offer help where I live, but the waitlists are closed.
It's not like I'm hateful, I'm just a content hermit. My boyfriend used to be the same, but he started doing more around others and he seems to enjoy it. We argue a lot these days over my bad depression issue and my self harming behavior. Sometimes I can't get out of bed cause depression paralyzes me. He doesn't let me leave the house at night cause he worries I might CTB. I told him a long time ago that's my end goal and my anxiety is killing me. I don't have insurance and can't get meds. I tried websites that offer help where I live, but the waitlists are closed.