EricRoche
Member
- Apr 7, 2018
- 75
I often have wondered this. I am looking for a job and most likely going to get one in a week and a half. Despite that though, I am NOT happy at this and am very careful at being optimistic because I know that sooner or later, the same old shittiness of life will creep back in to the job; bad customers, bad employees, bad boss..(you get where this is going)
I was considering three options.
1.) buy heroin and on the street benzos. I know in other posts I've probably talked about how this will cause respiratory depression but the other thing I want to do is just enjoy one day of my life in such a way that isn't possible in a short period of time due to how evolution and the brain works (we live for survival, not necessarily for happiness). I don't doubt heroin is addictive but I'm planning on just treating myself. Buy pizza, champagne, high quality beer and also pretty much every drug. After enjoying myself and being chatty with people outside I'll slowly start doubling the dose of benzos, alcohol, and heroin to finally kill myself. I was thinking at the end of hiding all my drugs and deceiving any paramedics that may come with poisons like arsenic or antifreeze which they'll try and treat but of course, that won't be the issue.
2.) buy stimulant drugs (meth, OTC pseudoephedrine, Adderall) to stay awake and actually enjoy my job. Maybe I don't have to die in the next two weeks, next two months. I can enjoy myself and then postpone it for a year.
My mother tells me that ''Your life will be over if you buy drugs'' but that is the only reason why I'm searching for a job. I can't be a wage slave for the rest of my life. I need recreational drugs to both work and enjoy life. Luckily I live in a country that doesn't do drug tests for most jobs (low skilled, office jobs) because if I did, I would quit. Don't care if I could be a programmer earning €70,000. If I can't spend at least 40% of the week while being at work under some thing, no point whatsoever. At least that's what I think.
I was considering three options.
1.) buy heroin and on the street benzos. I know in other posts I've probably talked about how this will cause respiratory depression but the other thing I want to do is just enjoy one day of my life in such a way that isn't possible in a short period of time due to how evolution and the brain works (we live for survival, not necessarily for happiness). I don't doubt heroin is addictive but I'm planning on just treating myself. Buy pizza, champagne, high quality beer and also pretty much every drug. After enjoying myself and being chatty with people outside I'll slowly start doubling the dose of benzos, alcohol, and heroin to finally kill myself. I was thinking at the end of hiding all my drugs and deceiving any paramedics that may come with poisons like arsenic or antifreeze which they'll try and treat but of course, that won't be the issue.
2.) buy stimulant drugs (meth, OTC pseudoephedrine, Adderall) to stay awake and actually enjoy my job. Maybe I don't have to die in the next two weeks, next two months. I can enjoy myself and then postpone it for a year.
My mother tells me that ''Your life will be over if you buy drugs'' but that is the only reason why I'm searching for a job. I can't be a wage slave for the rest of my life. I need recreational drugs to both work and enjoy life. Luckily I live in a country that doesn't do drug tests for most jobs (low skilled, office jobs) because if I did, I would quit. Don't care if I could be a programmer earning €70,000. If I can't spend at least 40% of the week while being at work under some thing, no point whatsoever. At least that's what I think.
