How did everyone react when you were exposed for SH?

[rotten]

Was your experience ok or just purely traumatic? Feel free to vent about it below. I know a lot of friends, family, and medical personnel have such a backwards mindset about these types of things.

The first time it happened to me it wasn't really a big deal. This guy who was friends with my bf saw my wrist while a bunch of us were collaborating on an assignment. He was sitting next to me and I was talking to a few of my friends. Then I got the feeling someone was staring. Turned around, and he had the thousand yard stare directed at my wrist. I quickly adjusted my sleeve and turned back around scared. He didn't say anything then, but later he did tell my bf.

The last time was the worst…my parents found out. Fucking school pulled me out of class and sent me to the crisis center. The nurses made me show them my cuts and later told my parents everything.

I lived in hell for about a year straight. My parents physically and emotionally abused me for my sh and suicidal thoughts. At one point even grabbed a knife and attempted to cut my thighs as punishment.

What a surprise! This didn't make me snap out of it at all :) in fact it made me more suicidal. I'm an adult now and to this day I think about ctb everyday and I sh at least several times a week. I don't tell anyone in my life anything anymore and I lost the feeling of wanting to be saved.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

"I'm an adult now and to this day I think about ctb everyday and I sh at least several times a week. I don't tell anyone in my life anything anymore and I lost the feeling of wanting to be saved."

I feel the same. I've only told one person who also tried to ctb. Never anyone else. Life is too hard for me, always has been. I'm always a target for being treated badly whether by "loved" ones or complete strangers.

 

[vampire2002]

my mom recently found out a few months ago that i do it. she saw recent scars and was like, "i can't believe you did that to your arms." among basically just treating me like a freak and making me feel bad for having struggled at all. she kept bringing it up throughout the day when the conversation was on completely different things and it just made me feel horrible. i hate when people find out, cause they're usually disrespectful about it. i personally don't really find it any worse than getting a tattoo, but everyone makes such a huge deal out of it.

 

[areyousafe??]

I was paranoid about anyone seeing my scars, so I hid behind long sleeves. One day I lost control at school and got blood on my uniform which I couldn't wash off, so I decided to come clean to my mum. She looked at my arm, said "oh, okay" and left my room. At that time, I was relieved that she didn't make a big deal about it.

Years later, I heard her telling a doctor that she felt "so angry" that I was "cutting for attention".