I dont know what to do anymore, somebody pls help me, if there is a god pls help me, My SN didnt arrive and my intrusive thoughts are coming back I can feel myself losing me again, I dont where I went, it has gone, and why is it happening to me, I think I might have depersonaltisation, and I watched this stupid yt video of that death might not be real so I cant reallly escape myself if I die, I want to escape myself or bring back me, these last weeks my old self came back but now I feel her sliping away again
I want to cut myself too but in throat now,bc SN is late it will take it another week to arrive, I was hoping to ctb tonight but looks not like it