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The Crybaby
Thanks a lot, Asperger’s syndrome
- May 9, 2024
- 14
I am absolutely my father's daughter, I look more like him than I do my mother and act similarly to him. He is a very kind and loving guy, I can not stop feeling horrible for him.
He knows that I have been struggling with my depression and is really trying his best to make me happy. However, happy does not pay any bills, it does not make generational wealth, it does not stick around and my happiness does nothing for anyone else. Me living is only adding to his stress.
My ctb date is tomorrow, I already had a conversation with him a month ago and told him that it is necessary. I am dead weight. My social skills are getting worse since I am a neet, I am too scared to get a job, and my compulsions are metaphorically shoving me into a locker. I know that he will get over the loss someday. He understood, but is in denial.
My dad is the only person I have right now, although I am terrified of men [not his fault].
I should ctb but I know how selfish it is. I just do not want to hurt him. What should I say that might put him at ease?
He knows that I have been struggling with my depression and is really trying his best to make me happy. However, happy does not pay any bills, it does not make generational wealth, it does not stick around and my happiness does nothing for anyone else. Me living is only adding to his stress.
My ctb date is tomorrow, I already had a conversation with him a month ago and told him that it is necessary. I am dead weight. My social skills are getting worse since I am a neet, I am too scared to get a job, and my compulsions are metaphorically shoving me into a locker. I know that he will get over the loss someday. He understood, but is in denial.
My dad is the only person I have right now, although I am terrified of men [not his fault].
I should ctb but I know how selfish it is. I just do not want to hurt him. What should I say that might put him at ease?
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