I've had enough with the peaceful death shit. SN, exit bags, partial hanging, etc. I'm shooting myself. 12 gauge, barrel sawed off, 00 buck shot. I'm making sure I don't come back. My only thing is I don't want someone to have the burder of stumbling across my headless corpse. My thought was going out on the ocean since I live on the coast and shooting myself while I'm in the water but I don't know if that'll work. I'm worried that my body will float back onto land. I also don't have that much money so I can't afford a boat to make sure I'm far out on the ocean.
I'm just exhausted. My entire life, since I was like 4, has been miserable and I've had enough. My last serious attempt was back in 2016 (it has nothing to do with the election, just a coincidence). Took a bunch of psychotropics and woke up 3 days later in the hospital. Sometimes I think I actually did die back then and this is just my personal hell. All those liars that told me that it'll get better. No the fuck it hasn't. I'm so much worse for the wear now than I was back then. Over 8 years later with nothing to show for it. The fact that I'm even still thinking about 8 years ago proves it.
I'm just exhausted. My entire life, since I was like 4, has been miserable and I've had enough. My last serious attempt was back in 2016 (it has nothing to do with the election, just a coincidence). Took a bunch of psychotropics and woke up 3 days later in the hospital. Sometimes I think I actually did die back then and this is just my personal hell. All those liars that told me that it'll get better. No the fuck it hasn't. I'm so much worse for the wear now than I was back then. Over 8 years later with nothing to show for it. The fact that I'm even still thinking about 8 years ago proves it.
