I'm not hung up about needles or trying to control how others perceive me after I'm dead. Cocktail of choice would be the heroin/fentanyl or opiate/opioid that's supposedly killing so many people. If it's lethal and it feels so fucking good that people kill themselves with it by accident, I want it. If I ever get a good source I will likely use casually for a couple of months then just kind of quietly slip away. I've never used needles, only snorted/smoked but I would definitely want to feel confident with the needle when I ctb.
Honestly I don't know why more people don't choose this method, it seems wonderfully peaceful.
Like when doctors hang themselves I'm like "idiot. you could've got morphine. what,were you worried about losing your license? you're fucking dead."