Help How can I find the courage to CTB

[Alexander]

I got SN and antiemetics but I don't find the courage to CTB, so I change my mind frequently. Being without determination is my worst weakness and the first reason why my life isn't worth to be lived. Does somebody have some suggestion for finding the force to do what I've to do?

 

[Beachedwhale]

Honestly I think it means you haven't exhausted all options that may help fix your life. At least that is my case. It's painful but I know I can't do it until then.

 

[WornOutLife]

I think I only have courage to ctb when I'm drugged with sleeping pills and drunk lol.

 

[whywere]

HI! Here is my idea(s). 1st) I would take a, lets say, long weekend away from everything, in ones favorite place, and relax, and do nothing. just soak in the surrounds and let ones mind explore. 2nd) I then would come back and see everything around me that I love and cherish, if I have nothing to love or cherish I would think of my place in this world and the next. what I am trying to say, I guess, is that since you have a strong SI, that is great by the way, and NO I am NOT a pro-lifer by NO means, I have had 2 attempts myself, is that I would try and take some time and explore in ones mind the endless possibilities of this world first. After my 2nd attempt I thought about it, I have 24/7 chronic pain, so a 3rd time is always a possibility, the act that ctb is one and done. I know, duh!, right? Well yes, but sometimes it is overlooked in the scheme of things. Just my cheesy viewpoint. I will say that I am sending YOU @Alexander all my love and support, as YOU are a valuable global family member here with everyone! Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

I think you will know when the time is right. I think when most people ctb they feel the urge to do it which can explain why many people do it impulsively. People ctb when they feel desperate and out of options. I know that our SI is hard to overcome.

 

[NormaJeane]

I believe that all people have difficulty committing suicide because the body is not created to kill itself. Dr Philip Nitschke suggests drugs such as cannabis before the suicide. Physical and psychological pain can be just as difficult, but when the pain is stronger than the fact that we are programmed to live, suicide will be possible.

 

[Alexander]

Thanks everybody for your answers :)

 

[S like suicide]

Force comes when you have nothing left to live for. it is an act of despair.If lack of determination is your main problem in your life you should working on your determination(Probably you already did)before of thinking of dying.Maybe there is still hope,not everything is lost.Give you another chance.

 

[landojustwannactb]

I got SN and antiemetics but I don't find the courage to CTB, so I change my mind frequently. Being without determination is my worst weakness and the first reason why my life isn't worth to be lived. Does somebody have some suggestion for finding the force to do what I've to do?

Prolly alcohol homie. Trynna ctb tonight after this lmao