EmotionlessWanderer

EmotionlessWanderer

Specialist
Jan 19, 2019
352
Before 2019 I was a dead end part time truck unloader at Lowe's. Upper management constantly bitched to our night manager about how we weren't working hard enough despite the fact we were killing ourselves unloading the truck as fast as possible.

It doesn help that the truck is filled with who knows what, we were pressured into unloading it within 5 hours or less and we were technically not supposed to have more than 15 hours per week. It didn't help we only had 4 people.

One week we had to come in at 4AM due to night shift manager being on vacation and she told me like 5 times the upcoming Monday we were coming in at 12PM due to New Year's Eve and after that everything returned to normal.

Turns out they still needed me to come in at 4AM and nobody told me about it. I kind of had a mental breakdown and didn't come in for the past 5 or so weeks. That was the tip of the iceberg. Heck I even attempted to disappear from home and jump to death somewhere only to pussy out at the last minute.

I know this is a stupid as fuck move and selfish as well. No doubt does the manager and co workers who I actually got along with hate my ass now and probably wished I was dead. I'm just wondering how this circumstance I caused for myself will affect my chance of getting another dead end part time job.

I'm only considering about doing it because my step father will be out of town for an entire month in April and despite what I said about my mother in a previous thread I don't want to leave her alone.

I just need a job to keep me from going mentally insane until then.
 
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EmotionlessWanderer

EmotionlessWanderer

Specialist
Jan 19, 2019
352
I'm pretty sure I was mentally broken being treated like a ghost by family for the 10 billionth time on Christmas. That could be another factor.
 
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EmotionlessWanderer

EmotionlessWanderer

Specialist
Jan 19, 2019
352
I am selfish as fuck for even for making this stupid post.
 
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NumbItAll

NumbItAll

expendable
May 20, 2018
1,090
I am selfish as fuck for even for making this stupid post.
It's not stupid! It sounds like you were pushed to a breaking point from a very stressful situation and that's nothing to be ashamed of. I don't really know the answer to the main question but I'm sure someone else can help with that.
 
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Chlo

Chlo

Experienced
Feb 17, 2019
213
Hey, stop beating yourself up about it! You're not selfish, you just couldn't deal and removed yourself from the situation. I've done it a few times, and don't usually have much trouble finding work when I can put the effort in. If you're very worried, just don't put it on your resume or don't use that manager as a reference.
 
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Norest4thewicked

Norest4thewicked

Losing it
Nov 4, 2018
270
You are not selfish @EmotionlessWanderer you have been under a fuck ton of stress. Don't beat yourself up over it. Unreasonable demands at work just add to it
 
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Jen Erik

Jen Erik

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Oct 12, 2018
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If there are a lot of open jobs in your area, that means the job market is good, employers can't afford to be dicks about stuff, they need bodies.

I don't think you're selfish for making this post.
 
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Grey-zone

Grey-zone

Student
Feb 2, 2019
147
Not selfish at all, and even if you were, it doesn't sound like your managers deserve that much consideration. If you're treated like shit on the job (low pay, poor scheduling, etc...) then it should not surprise them that you or others quit. We have all been trained by a "work ethic" to identify with the people who have power over us, but that's a different topic/rant entirely.
Find some place better. I know you can. I'm 28, and have almost no job experience capable of putting on a resume, but I was still re-hired from the same place I walked away from two years before.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,439
Just leave it off your resume. You may have to explain the employment gap but i'm sure you could find ideas on how to do that online, since you're definitely not the first person to walk off a shitty job.
 
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Chlo

Chlo

Experienced
Feb 17, 2019
213
What @WhiteRabbit said — you can lie and say something like you were taking care of a sick family member.
 
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EmotionlessWanderer

EmotionlessWanderer

Specialist
Jan 19, 2019
352
I'm think I'm going to try to get another job and give it another go at life. If I can't get another one then I'll just CTB ASAP the second my bank account runs empty.

I lied to my household and told them I got fired. Should I tell them what really happened minus the running away part?
 
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brighter

brighter

Warlock
Jan 22, 2019
718
I'm think I'm going to try to get another job and give it another go at life. If I can't get another one then I'll just CTB ASAP the second my bank account runs empty.

I lied to my household and told them I got fired. Should I tell them what really happened minus the running away part?
I think tell them what you're comfortable with and leave out what you know they'll be REALLY mad about.
Also, giving it another shot is good, it means you're mature and logical and that if one day you decide to ctb, you'll know you tried and that it's the best thing for you at that point.
Good luck with everything x
 
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EmotionlessWanderer

EmotionlessWanderer

Specialist
Jan 19, 2019
352
Welp parents finally found out but only the abandonment part not my suicide attempt. They were surprisingly chill about it too. Thank fucking god. I dodged another bullet.
 
FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
I've read lots of studies (US employment) that just being unemployed is a significant red flag when seeking work. Seems there are SOO many well-qualified job applicants that companies are looking for excuses to toss resumes/applications. Hope you find something soon if you still want to. Happy to brainstorm is it would help.
 

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