nihilistic_dragon
Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
- Aug 6, 2024
- 556
Mine not so good. I have a date on my calendar exactly one month from now to start buying some things, booking flights, hotels, etc. Ctb date is at least three-four months away but I need to book things in advance. I was scrolling my calendar the other day after not seeing it in a long time. When I saw that the date is only four weeks away I got an uneasy feeling. Shit's about to get real. I have no other choice.
Like all people, I sometimes procrastinate. Except that I do it for one and only reason - I always hope that something happens that prevents me from having to do the task lol. I am very tempted to postpone the dates. But I cannot. It's like going in for a tooth extraction. You know you have to do it. You don't want the pain of the surgery but you can't leave that painful tooth in your mouth either.
I am so sick of this bullshit existence. Exhausted, tired of getting disappointed over and over, of accumulating problems, of finding no meaning in anything.
Like all people, I sometimes procrastinate. Except that I do it for one and only reason - I always hope that something happens that prevents me from having to do the task lol. I am very tempted to postpone the dates. But I cannot. It's like going in for a tooth extraction. You know you have to do it. You don't want the pain of the surgery but you can't leave that painful tooth in your mouth either.
I am so sick of this bullshit existence. Exhausted, tired of getting disappointed over and over, of accumulating problems, of finding no meaning in anything.