HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
Christmas was bad enough, but I'm especially dreading new year. New beginning... Yeah right. I should be gone already but my SN seems to have got lost in the mail or something. I don't plan to make it past January though
 
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noctiva

noctiva

the invisible girl
Nov 6, 2019
393
Alone as well. This life is a nightmare. I wish I was rid of it already.
 
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WaitingAround2Die

Member
Dec 12, 2019
46
I know just what you mean.
Christmas was bad enough, but I'm especially dreading new year. New beginning... Yeah right. I should be gone already but my SN seems to have got lost in the mail or something. I don't plan to make it past January though
Will hopefully be asleep by midnight.
 
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Nemeshisu

Nemeshisu

Experienced
Dec 25, 2019
236
I will just drink bootle of wine completly alone.
 
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Rena rossy

Rena rossy

will be blue
Dec 24, 2019
124
With my family, I am commited to at least let them see me one last time. I am not really going to be happy, but I can try to fake it. So they don't suspect much either.
 
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JustAnotherSuicider

JustAnotherSuicider

Hoping for the best - expecting the worst
Dec 28, 2019
98
Alone, in my room, eating nachos with salsa, drinking champagne and playing games or watching Netflix.
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,058
Sleeping
 
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HopeDiesLast

self-banned
Dec 28, 2019
254
People always talk about new year's resolutions...and every year I secretly think to myself, "My New Year's resolution is to NOT live another year".

Then I just go to bed... :haha:
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
My goal for next year: end my life
 
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Kaczka86

Kaczka86

Looking for...?
Dec 15, 2019
52
I will probably close myself in the room and try to not think about loneliness, haha... Maybe draw or just go to sleep early. Or play games. Anything that will draw myself away from overthinking.

Wish I could drink alcohol more easily. :hmph:
 
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thepolarbear

thepolarbear

'til we die
Dec 7, 2019
58
Gonna sleep through the entire thing like a boss.
 
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S1mpleme

Mage
Dec 27, 2019
517
Maybe silly question, but how about to meet each other or at least make kinda video conference and spend this time together?
 
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Icarus

Icarus

Member
Jul 25, 2019
76
Home with my family. Will have wine and keep working on my 5000 pieces puzzle
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
Drinking for the first time since last new year.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
I will be attending a NYE party that my friend is throwing, pretending that I'm fine and not suicidal and that I'll make it another year.
 
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Manja

Can't wait to die
Nov 27, 2019
182
Watching TV all night...alone off course
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
Alone with cats, ruminating over my mistakes. Like every other day...
Fuck, I hate my life.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,724
I'm mostly just living life regularly, keeping low like usual, gathering my CTB related content (quietly of course) and then when the next big catalyst hits or when I am in 100% control, just end it on a whim. Will likely be renovating my bedroom and stuff, so it would be the worst time to have my method around because it could be discovered by accident (which is why I have it in storage). After I've settled down for a while and waiting for an opening, I would be able to move my method in quietly.
 
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Taki

Taki

Specialist
Jul 30, 2019
319
Alone, probably drinking. Will try to zone out. I wish I could celebrate the end of a shit year but next year is already looking pretty bad. Really hoping this is my last NYE.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Driving arround. Same as last year. And just like the year before hoping it'd be my last.
 
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HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
Maybe silly question, but how about to meet each other or at least make kinda video conference and spend this time together?

Nice idea but people on this forum are very private so it wouldn't happen
 
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Demonbait93

Demonbait93

Come die with me.
Dec 30, 2019
11
Hopefully I can watch fireworks while I kill myself.
 
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Kaczka86

Kaczka86

Looking for...?
Dec 15, 2019
52
Nice idea but people on this forum are very private so it wouldn't happen
Private + feel pure fear when thinking about actually talking to strangers, especially through phone/computer. Or that's only in my case...?
 
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enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
new year's eve? i'll be drunk. new year's day? the gym and the mall, hopefully. trying to be at least a little bit proactive as i ring in 2020, even though new year's resolutions are 100% bullshit.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Wizard
May 14, 2018
605
Alone, probably playing stardew valley with my vaporizer.
 
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1DayItWillBover

1DayItWillBover

Student
Dec 21, 2019
148
i'll be spending new years eve in my room taking depression and suicidal tests online because you know i need to feel validated. Trying to starve myself but failing. listening to music then break down for a bit and get teary eyed because you know life is terrible. Browse these forums, post a bit. Watch youtube videos.. wish i was happy but do nothing to improve my situation.

wait a second thats every fucking day.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
Both @Jean4 & @Brick In The Wall have created NYE threads, if anyone is interested. Everyone is welcome to stop by for as long as you wish, if you're feeling lonely.
I would much rather spend my NYE with the people here than with anyone in my real life.
You don't have to stay long, if you don't want to, but please everyone pop in and say hello.

I'll most likely be getting drunk like I have every New Year's Eve since my husband died, except for the last year when my SIL guilted me into going to her house.
I've never been so bored in my life! She's attempting to do it again this year, but I refuse to go. I'm staying here and doing what I want for a change. I've had a sucky year and if I want to get drunk until I pass out, I have every right to do so! This will be my last NYE ever and I want to enjoy it as much as I can.
My only New Year's resolution is to get all of my stuff organized and ctb, as soon as possible after the new year starts.
Love to you all! :heart:
My goal for next year: end my life
I suspect many people on this site have that same goal. I certainly do! :heart:
 
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zherhk

zherhk

Student
Nov 25, 2019
126
Trying not to think too much about others having actually fun and enjoying life without being totally empty inside with things that I can't do.
Plus it hurts also remembering every year at this time. Being already empty and hoping things to go better, but until today just went so much worse no matter all my hard work.
Game Over.
 
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Taki

Taki

Specialist
Jul 30, 2019
319
i'll be spending new years eve in my room taking depression and suicidal tests online because you know i need to feel validated. Trying to starve myself but failing. listening to music then break down for a bit and get teary eyed because you know life is terrible. Browse these forums, post a bit. Watch youtube videos.. wish i was happy but do nothing to improve my situation.

wait a second thats every fucking day.
Sounds eerily familiar
 
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RationalGirl

Student
Dec 30, 2019
118
Alone
 
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