Discussion how are you preparing to leave?

[schatzbunny]

what are you planning on leaving behind? notes? instructions on what to do with your belongings? life advice for those you're close to? a diary?

because ctb will be the last thing i'll do in my life, i don't want it to be rushed and i really don't want to be misunderstood in my death

 

[Grog]

I think the people who want to understand you will, and the people who don't want to understand won't. I think this is true, even in death. I don't think the people who have hurt me will ever realize their wrong-doing, even if I try to explain it in my suicide note. I think their egos are so far up their ass, people will just say "Why did he do this? I didn't see this coming." So, I'm not sure if I want to leave a note anymore. But, I do wish people would understand how much they've hurt me.

I kind of want to just sit on the train tracks and wait for a train to run me over -- so that way, I can die instantly and feel no pain.

 

[AstralMadness]

the person i'll leave the most to is my best friend, i'll leave him all my accounts even tho most are useless i want him to mostly keep the games i've bought and probably just tell him how much i love him and that he's the only person that's ever stood by my side in any way for so long

 

[Reyishere]

I don't want to give my parents the satisfaction of knowing what i did so I'm thinking about leaving something like "I hope this doesn't ruin your reputation" because they keep telling me how the things I do hurts them and their reputation haha but i might not leave anything just cuz. As for my friends i want to give them some accessories so they can have me with them forever. I also want to explain to them why I did what I did but idk how cuz every time I try to write something i cringe so bad lol.

 

[peewee]

i doubt i'll leave or say anything. i tried to talk to the person i love most who put me in the situation thats driving me to ctb, and they just blocked me, even though they knew i was suicidal and they gave me great reason to. they literally dont care if i die and they will never talk to me again, or let me say anything. i cant wait to be done with this world

 

[Jadeith]

i doubt i'll leave or say anything

Same. Those that i might want to leave any kind of note or message to, won't understand anyway. Or, at least for now, they do not show any promise that they will understand, not to mention accept my decision. This one person that actually might understand, will be contacted directly/verbally.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Well I was planning on leaving silently. I wanted to move away from family, and spend my last moments (weeks or months) living on my own before ending it all; it would have been awesome to have at least some feeling of independence before dying - alone and peaceful. Though due to... circumstances this does not seem possible in the near future. I will probably have to spend the New Year with others... which really upsets me.

 

[Chemi]

I won't leave anything. I am always open to friends i trust and share my appreciation and love for them as often as i can. I want them to remember the love i gave them along the way and not have them remember my final words on a note. For the people who hurt me, I'd rather not waste my last thoughts and words on them. They won't care, and so shouldn't i.

 

[panhandle5363]

I'll leave:

1. The passphrase for my password manager.
2. A list of belongings for my friends and family.
3. A note for my loved ones.

I want to make their lives easier.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Since i will stage my SN ctb to look like an illegal drug overdose im not going to leave nothing to anyone. It will appear like i left home to take a walk and overdosed myself. I very well may be the first ever SN suicide in my country. As of October 2025 there isnt a single SN suicide in North Macedonia.