How are you making peace with your family before you CTB?

[been__ready]

This is assuming your relationship with your family is strained and a contributing factor to your decision to CTB?

I left my family home over a decade ago, had my own house and everything!

But it turns out unresolved family/childhood trauma affects your adult relationships and now I've ended up back at my family home due to my declining mental health and inability to care for myself.

Every day I am reminded through family interactions why I left and why life has led me to this point. I'm trying not to leave this world bitter and disappointed, I'm trying to make peace, but I'm struggling to do so..

 

[coffeebeany]

I won't make peace. I see no point in that. I ll neither forgive nor forget. For me it won't make a difference when I ctb.

 

[Forveleth]

I'll make peace with them the day their decisions stop affecting my life. Neither of those will ever happen. My suicide notes are lists of all of the things I realized in therapy, mostly how they royally fucked me up. I blatantly told them I was miserable and struggling so many times and they did nothing so they get nothing from me.

 

[dOm!n!K]

I probably won't make peace with them. At least not with the ones that contribute to my bad mental state. They don't deserve anything from me - no making amends, no apologies. I think I quite like the idea of dying without even telling them something that'd give them closure - they are partially a reason I'll CTB. The only person I'd talk to is my father, since he is one of the only good people in my family. I'd make sure he knows I love him and he didn't do anything that'd push me into direction of ending it and that he is what kept me around here a bit longer.

 

[been__ready]

I'll make peace with them the day their decisions stop affecting my life. Neither of those will ever happen. My suicide notes are lists of all of the things I realized in therapy, mostly how they royally fucked me up. I blatantly told them I was miserable and struggling so many times and they did nothing so they get nothing from me.

I am sorry to hear of your suffering this isn't easy…
It shouldn't be like this.. wishing you internal peace.

I won't make peace. I see no point in that. I ll neither forgive nor forget. For me it won't make a difference when I ctb.

I admire your strength.. truly.
Trying to make peace has left me feeling worse so perhaps this is for the best.

Wishing you internal peace

I probably won't make peace with them. At least not with the ones that contribute to my bad mental state. They don't deserve anything from me - no making amends, no apologies. I think I quite like the idea of dying without even telling them something that'd give them closure - they are partially a reason I'll CTB. The only person I'd talk to is my father, since he is one of the only good people in my family. I'd make sure he knows I love him and he didn't do anything that'd push me into direction of ending it and that he is what kept me around here a bit longer.

Totally understand your reasoning and am glad you still have a supportive parent in your corner.. let him know you love him. Wishing you internal peace