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fuewybfunsfoiceoi

fuewybfunsfoiceoi

life is short, make it shorter
Mar 3, 2024
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I'm near that miserable category on average. On better days, my highest threshold nears apathetic

On average, where would you land? how's today been?
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,348
I usually go back and forth on that bottom left line. Almost always somewhere from drained to despair and the others in between. But today was a rare day for me. Was both pleased and happy, (well, happy for me anyway,) and that was a good thing. Those days are like finding a meteorite in comparison last several years, but I will take what I can get.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
658
I will actually say I am quite happy at the moment and was excited earlier surprisingly. On average I tho I normally feel apathetic or depressed or panicked with not being much inbetween but can feel some bits of positive here and there like pleasant. When its really bad tho I feel despair and sometimes enraged. I am able to feel really positive emotions like ecstatic, loving and comfy too but thats rare and its happening less and less often.
 
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CatLvr

Paragon
Aug 1, 2024
946
I usually go back and forth on that bottom left line. Almost always somewhere from drained to despair and the others in between. But today was a rare day for me. Was both pleased and happy, (well, happy for me anyway,) and that was a good thing. Those days are like finding a meteorite in comparison last several years, but I will take what I can get.
I'm so glad you had a good day today.

A lot of where I am depends on my pain levels. I have some kinda flu-thing that is going around the state and feel like shit (but better than the 3-4 days before this), so I'm pretty miserable right now.

Typically my mood fluctuates on whether I get to see my son or not. We text every day, and try to get together once a week or so. I am a decidedly different person when we get to spend time together. He's a good man and his girlfriend is a sweetheart. I love them both to bits.
 
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Ezpz0109

why me
Jan 17, 2025
20
Despair, at all times of everyday for the past infinite years
 
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Prism

Prism

miles to go before I sleep
Jul 15, 2024
72
Any dark blue with a side of lower dark red.
 
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crayonscrayons

crayonscrayons

Member
Nov 14, 2024
35
hmm i know its just a silly chart but I find it weird how "anger" emotions can go into "non anger" emotions and then to "anger" emotions again. or 2 "anger" emotions peaked by a "non anger" emotion.
like->

^Panicked (non anger)
^Furious (anger)
^Frightened (non-anger)

and->

^Stressed (non anger)
^Frustrated (anger-ish)
^Angry (anger)

but anywaysss i'm not sure where I am atm hmmm maybeee bored idk
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,927
I always feel so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only eternal nothingness can take away for me, I find it so painful to exist as to me existence is deeply undesirable in every way and I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence, I see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm and I'd never wish for any of this, I suffer because this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for was so tragically imposed.

I suffer so much because all I've ever hoped for is peace from this existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course I'm still trapped in this existence with no limit as to how much agony I can feel. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just to die tortured by old age, the fact that a human can suffer for so long is so horrific and unbearable to me, I really would never wish for any of this dreadful cruelty and suffering, I always feel so much dread for what lies ahead.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

In the Service of the Queen
Sep 19, 2023
1,955
Somewhere around drained/mellow/complacent
 
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Schizo_turk

Schizo_turk

Member
Jan 17, 2025
53
I am happy as long i do not have schizophrenic episodes or think about the future.
 
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H.O.Xan

Specialist
Feb 1, 2023
304
Aren't these basically synonyms? Every negative emotion i guess. But sumtimes I experience serenity when in nature by myself
 
mayayo

mayayo

Very Tired
Jan 13, 2025
11
Almost always bounce between depressed and angry. If I have some time to myself, maybe I'll feel tranquil.
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

Alea iacta est. The die is cast.
Mar 9, 2024
1,114
I permanently exist in the bottom-left quadrant.
 
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HereTomorrow

HereTomorrow

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
612
Mellow, in a good way. Low energy makes me comfortable.
 
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whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

*bleat*
Aug 5, 2024
74
tense. my mood always switches between that and annoyed
 
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vadim

vadim

Disqualified From Being Human
Aug 10, 2023
121
I'm most likely feeling several emotions from the left half at any given moment.
 
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lilichka

lilichka

Superfluous Man
Jan 17, 2025
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I'm near that miserable category on average. On better days, my highest threshold nears apathetic

On average, where would you land? how's today been?
my baseline is probably morose, going down to despair and up at pleasant. im almost always somewhere on that axis, right now im probably sullen.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
377
lonely
 
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yowai

yowai

Experienced
Aug 28, 2024
271
Right now uneasy, usually it's fatigued, bored and frustrated
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
270
Tired or fatigued, finding something to get me up is tiring
 
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