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computer

computer

Member
Sep 12, 2025
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just wondering
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,451
the same shit as every day
how are you doing?
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Torn between fixing and ending my life
Aug 27, 2025
254
Just woke up a short time ago and find myself exhausted by another night of poor sleep thanks to a lumpy mattress. The problem is, when I wake up in the middle of the night, the thoughts of regret or loneliness creep in and creates a spiral, then that spiral fuels the sleeplessness. This is further aggravated by a sore back and shoulders.

This has been going on for weeks so it's time to replace the old, cratered mattress so my brain will allow me to get some proper sleep.
 
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Scenegirlshooter

Scenegirlshooter

numb and dumb.
Aug 21, 2024
36
weed has been distracting me* so I'd say good
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Wizard
Jul 9, 2025
623
In pain like everyday. Neverending story...
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 Friends with Aera23
Apr 10, 2025
1,200
relaxing... ripped a CD in 4.5 hours (the I/O errors took up 4+ hours, the rest was under 12 mins... somehow Track 3.. In My Veins... was salvaged), while that occured, I posted on both this forum and an unrelated one, and had butter chicken :)
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
158
I feel like a waste of space and resources. I will have to retake a subject for the third time yet I can't do anything about it because I just don't feel psychologically well enough. And here I am rambling about myself again, without the skills to help others.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 Friends with Aera23
Apr 10, 2025
1,200
I feel like a waste of space and resources. I will have to retake a subject for the third time yet I can't do anything about it because I just don't feel psychologically well enough. And here I am rambling about myself again, without the skills to help others.
I've failed subjects sometimes... it is indeed frustrating.
 
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fedup1982

Specialist
Jul 17, 2025
392
Not bad thanks. Just trouble finding shit to do so I don't feel frustrated or restless but it beats the shit out of deep psychosis
 
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DontCryForChimp

DontCryForChimp

I am a coward
Aug 7, 2025
31
A messy situation. I am struggling to sort out some stuff and it has become more frustrating than it should have been. Other than that I guess things aren't too bad right now. It is very tiring.
 
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DirtCommie

DirtCommie

Member
Aug 22, 2025
81
I feel like a waste of space and resources. I will have to retake a subject for the third time yet I can't do anything about it because I just don't feel psychologically well enough. And here I am rambling about myself again, without the skills to help others.
lol there are literally paid off mercenaries and biker gangs genociding people in Palestine all for money and to stroke their fragile egos lol .And then there's bribed off poo-liticians like sunak, trudeau, starmer, kamala , biden , carney, macron, antonio gueterres ,mileikowsky , etc... who have said they enjoy seeing this carnage....

LOL youre telling me little quiet, peaceful you are a waste of space and resources.... but actual hitlerites like them ARENT? Huh? Stop it. THEY are the wastes of space and resources.

Even the soil you step on is better than theyll ever imagine being...SO just imagine at what magnitude YOU are more worthy of honour than them....

🫂Sorry for any pain youre going through. 🫂 . Its alright that you feel upset that youre struggling with something , we all struggle with one thing or a another in academics. Its also alright to feel that you need to take a break for a bit cause you cant do retake that subject ASAP.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
158
lol there are literally paid off mercenaries and biker gangs genociding people in Palestine all for money and to stroke their fragile egos lol .And then there's bribed off poo-liticians like sunak, trudeau, starmer, kamala , biden , carney, macron, antonio gueterres ,mileikowsky , etc... who have said they enjoy seeing this carnage....

LOL youre telling me little quiet, peaceful you are a waste of space and resources.... but actual hitlerites like them ARENT? Huh? Stop it. THEY are the wastes of space and resources.

Even the soil you step on is better than theyll ever imagine being...SO just imagine at what magnitude YOU are more worthy of honour than them....

🫂Sorry for any pain youre going through. 🫂 . Its alright that you feel upset that youre struggling with something , we all struggle with one thing or a another in academics. Its also alright to feel that you need to take a break for a bit cause you cant do retake that subject ASAP.
Thank you so much for the kind words. It's just that I feel so guilty for not having an income at 25, and leeching off of my family. But you are right, there are much worse people out there. I guess I need to stop feeling guilty because I never chose for my mental health to be this bad. I wish you a good day/night!
 
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ForsakenEcho

ForsakenEcho

take me home where i belong
Jan 14, 2024
55
I've been overworked and my sleep schedule is all messed up, so I constantly feel tired and not in the mood to do much outside of work… and I've been a bit anxious because of the person I like. So yeah, to sum it up, not too well
 
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otoyikim

otoyikim

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Jun 8, 2025
19
Patiently waiting.
 
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Xielian

Xielian

Not quite a human, not yet a ghost.
Jul 22, 2024
25
I had a meltdown in front of my new friend because I was exhausted and overwhelmed with my current life. It was very humiliating, and I feel very guilty.
 
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CaoineadhcuChulainn

CaoineadhcuChulainn

New Member
Sep 9, 2023
2
I am what is referred to as someone who has survived a loss by suicide. It will be three years tomorrow since tired868686 took his own life, and some members of this site had the extraordinary privilege of saying goodbye to him. How am I doing? Well, better than I was three years ago, but apprehensive as tomorrow approaches. The grief never stops, and the passing of time merely accentuates the absence from the world of the person you love. How I miss him.
 
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DirtCommie

DirtCommie

Member
Aug 22, 2025
81
well Im warm, somewhat fed, and in a building so Im doing bettrer than a lot of people ....sadly...,
 
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Someplace_nice

Someplace_nice

Student
Sep 28, 2024
141
Well, I found out my best friend from Middle school wasn't dead, that came with a lot of complicated feelings and season change is happening so my depression is growing. My friend being alive should've made me happy but, I grieved for over a year and had come to terms with it and they definitely aren't the same anymore. Which makes me feel sad but they're doing so much better but, that doesn't out weight the sadness. I keep clinging to the past version of him but he's not that type of person anymore and that's also been really hard to come to terms with. And you were the only person who asked how I was feeling about the whole thing, even tho ik you didn't ask me directly nor even knew that happened. It helped to tell someone, so thank you.
 
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westerly_merlin

westerly_merlin

I am past my best before date
Aug 13, 2025
114
Lying in bed with the dog looking at me and trying to communicate I should get up, walk him and then make our breakfast.

I find it hard to think about what I might be doing next week / month / year at the mo. I normally have a clear direction in life but I am currently stymied.

I am living in limbo waiting on my partner to decide if she wants to make our relationship work or to pull the pin on the grenade. As much as I am still hoping it is the former I am mentally preparing for the worst case.

Anyhoo I better get up as the dog is now licking my face.
 
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kseniakahnovich1

New Member
Feb 2, 2025
3
I'm reading the stories of famous people who killed themselves (to sprinkle any modicum of happiness on me) just to pass the time between now and my inevitable death. So it's awful.
 
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tooBadTooLate

tooBadTooLate

Member
Aug 16, 2025
73
Terrible. Been feeling depressed for the last week or so.
 
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traumer

traumer

the thorn
Nov 18, 2023
115
actually pretty good i was starving myself for like a week and finally i got the courage to eat without feeling disgusted!!! tummy full so im happy
 
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Lions303

Lions303

Blessed
Aug 24, 2025
59
Doing good, great actually. On a slow path of progress... Its slow but its progress <3
 
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sinnamonbun

Member
Jul 18, 2025
16
Things are finally looking up. My dog that's on hospice is stable for the time being, I just got a great job offer today after being unemployed for a month, my partner and I have never been in a better place. I feel very lucky to feel this stable for the first time in my life.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 Friends with Aera23
Apr 10, 2025
1,200
I'm relaxing... for these set of days I have a little too much spare time, tho spend it in chats, forums, and on the rest of the web.
 
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TBONTB

Elementalist
May 31, 2025
837
Things are finally looking up. My dog that's on hospice is stable for the time being, I just got a great job offer today after being unemployed for a month, my partner and I have never been in a better place. I feel very lucky to feel this stable for the first time in my life.
Yay!
 
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