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mayachcos

mayachcos

Member
Feb 18, 2026
16
Currently planning my first serious CTB attempt sometime in early April (with SN), and I'm now thinking of how I want to leave any messages for people I care about. How are yall planning to do it (and with what apps/software/medium)? Hopefully, I want this attempt to be my first and last.
 
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walliwalli

walliwalli

Member
Feb 14, 2026
72
a combination of different methods.
for my family: a flash drive with typed notes and everything else they need to know (passwords, bank info, etc.). the flash drive will be left near me.
for acquaintances who i owe responsibilities to: scheduled emails, not outright explaining my death but saying i have to drop whatever responsibility i owed them.
for friends on discord: this is the one i've been scratching my head over the most. i have to send messages to two servers. i was thinking a scheduled message via a bot, but most of those are for recurring messages, not one-time messages. i have to think about it some more.
 
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socksnsandles

Experienced
Oct 7, 2025
264
ive said everything ive needed to say while alive. no need for any final messages. maybe a note that says "im gonna haunt you"
 
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spøgelse

spøgelse

Student
May 14, 2023
113
I never have made one on previous attempts, even when I was younger. Not even when I was a naĂŻve kid. I won't on my next one either.
 
kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
280
For friends, acquaintances and everyone else I plan to leave a short delayed message on my personal blog. Not sure about family. Maybe I should leave a written note on paper or on flash drive (@walliwalli thanks for idea) where I could go deeper and give them everything they need.
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,234
for friends on discord: this is the one i've been scratching my head over the most. i have to send messages to two servers. i was thinking a scheduled message via a bot, but most of those are for recurring messages, not one-time messages. i have to think about it some more.
i'm dealing with this same issue. idk if my friends on discord will be able to receive a note from me.
 
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baptist6

baptist6

Member
Mar 2, 2026
11
Currently planning my first serious CTB attempt sometime in early April (with SN), and I'm now thinking of how I want to leave any messages for people I care about. How are yall planning to do it (and with what apps/software/medium)? Hopefully, I want this attempt to be my first and last.
I have never really sent any sort of note out or made any sort of plans on previous attempts, but this attempt which I'm doing massive research before I take initiative, I plan on making a scheduled post on Instagram. Make sure that I am fully alone, and send out scheduled text messages since Apple just recently introduced it. This way, no one calls any sort of wellness check on me. Unfortunately thats what happened the last time I tried to ctb, so yeah. On top of that, lots of notes in my phone's notepad, as well as a physical note saying where to find my final thoughts.
 
INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
199
There is a lot that I WISH I could say in a suicide note, but I do intend to make my death look not like a suicide, so unfortunately no note.
 
emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
197
if i do end up ctbing, for my family o'd probably leave a physical printed note and if i still have online friends i would maybe ask two people to send a large note for everyone if i didn't tell them i failed an attempt within 7 days. i dont know though, i would have to think on that second one further.
 
Afterglow

Afterglow

if found, return to closest moss covered rock
Feb 22, 2025
341
I've thought about that before and I'm not sure if leaving a message or a note is a good idea.

Part of me thinks a message is the kind choice, so people aren't left wondering what happened or blaming themselves.

But another part of me thinks leaving words behind just gives people something to replay in their heads forever.

I don't know which is worse, so I've never really decided.
 
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l1ablemistakes

l1ablemistakes

Wasted potential
Feb 16, 2026
148
I'm gonna leave a handwritten note for each person. Feels more personal than typing it.
 
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yabadabadooo

yabadabadooo

wander the world
Mar 3, 2026
6
usb stick with personal info and documents (passwords, etc), maybe a handwritten note to make it more personal with a backup copy on the usb. I used to write a lot in my notes app when I was younger (venting, general notes, unofficial diary), probably with put all that data on the usb too. basically, my entire life would be in a single stick, lol. I plan to put it in a plastic baggy and have it near my body.
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
114
Maybe a written note here for anyone irl. I'm not sure on that yet. And a delayed post for anyone from the site that I've made friends with to know why I stopped answering. Any that are left that is...
 
mjolnir

mjolnir

The One Who Falls From the Sky
Nov 15, 2025
137
I don't intend to leave any message other than an email with bank passwords.
 
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gattifw

Member
Feb 11, 2026
8
A written note on paper with some message trying to explain why I CTB and information of how to get into my phone and bank acc
 
knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Student
Apr 5, 2025
104
setting up delayed emails. I wanted something I can stop if it fails.
 
thetruetato

thetruetato

Suicidal Femboy :3
Jan 1, 2024
160
Currently planning my first serious CTB attempt sometime in early April (with SN), and I'm now thinking of how I want to leave any messages for people I care about. How are yall planning to do it (and with what apps/software/medium)? Hopefully, I want this attempt to be my first and last.
I have a YouTube video that is set up to automatically be made public if I go offline for more than a month.
 
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uselessmanz

Member
Feb 18, 2026
73
Currently planning my first serious CTB attempt sometime in early April (with SN), and I'm now thinking of how I want to leave any messages for people I care about. How are yall planning to do it (and with what apps/software/medium)? Hopefully, I want this attempt to be my first and last.
I'm past this, idek if reality is real - no need for a note
 
asgoodasdead

asgoodasdead

Member
Dec 27, 2025
53
I have a list of emails of people I want to send stuff too so I'm doing schedule sends. But for the messages themselves, they are resting in a random google doc
 
Warum

Warum

Member
Feb 11, 2026
60
i think i will not leave a note. which is ironic, my oirignal note was very, very long. i had a lot to say, especially to the abusive monsters in my life. in the end, nobody will get to hear anything.
 
wasphyso

wasphyso

Weird gender thing
Nov 1, 2023
16
An schedule post on Instagram and everything important ie (passwords, bank acc, etc) will be in a text file on my desktop
 
Unrequitedlife

Unrequitedlife

Conflicted daily
Jan 10, 2025
147
I plan to record a video on my phone individually for all those I care about. I will title them appropriately and send them to a throw away e-mail account and leave the log in details of that e-mail account written down close by directing people to it,
 
nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
145
I've thought about it a lot, and because part of my suicide note would be exposing the dodgy things my old workplace has done to me and things around those nature, I've thought about a scheduled post somewhere public on the internet that would be posted after I die. So, if I end up surviving, I would still have time to cancel the scheduled post and not create that chaos (if I end up living and have this post up, it would really mess up my future and my employability)
 
not much hope

not much hope

Member
Mar 7, 2026
7
I am just going to be lazy and only write sorry on my exit note. I'm just to jaded to care about what or how my suicide will effect my friends or family I just want out of this terrible world.
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
523
ive said everything ive needed to say while alive. no need for any final messages. maybe a note that says "im gonna haunt you"
lol

Somewhat similar here but I will leave a note and also a delayed / scheduled text message via SMS.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,695
Police sometimes take written notes as evidence so I am using scheduled emails instead.
 
Dinozauria

Dinozauria

September 2nd 2026
Feb 8, 2026
82
I really don't want people seeing my notes if I end up failing so I'll likely be writing them down on my phone, rewriting it in a notebook that I'll keep with me while CTBing, and hoping someone gets it to my family somehow
Police sometimes take written notes as evidence so I am using scheduled emails instead.
Holy shit, didn't know that. Hope that doesn't happen to me that sucks
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,934
I intend to attach my letters to a scheduled email sent to my solicitor. They'll need to be contacting those people anyway- with regards to my will.

I've heard that sometimes, the police don't pass on physical notes. I intend to leave a basic hand written one for them- to say it was a suicide with no one else involved. Then hope the others get digitally forwarded.
 

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