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clawsofperdition
the end is near
- Sep 4, 2020
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I hear about influencers (generally) or people in my country ctb and i really doubt they even know of sanctioned suicide. generally speaking, whenever people talk about the popular ways to die here, all they're met w is how they won't actually die from it. how is it that we are so preoccupied with dying and other people that do it without any help from online forums etc manage to die so easily? I've been scared to try any traditional methods since i don't want to fail and lose a year of my life in a hospital again but i doubt these people (at least most of them) used SN or anything of the sort. I'm just so tired. I really want to die and i feel like there's no way for me to. I'm desperate and it sucks seeing others succeeding when i've been researching and putting my all into this (obviously their deaths are sad and i don't condone it but damn)
reply: i don't get partial hanging?? I've read about it sm but all the comments make it seem so unviable.There are no tall buildings in my city or area. I can't get a gun. I can't find how to get SN. i wish there was an easy way to hang myself. What i really wish for is either a gun or N. I had a shot with N a few years ago and i'm still alive. I'm so desperate but i'm not willing to make any mistakes. I'm scared of pain but when i'm in the right mood i think i could stab myself sometimes (which wouldn't work anyways)
reply: i don't get partial hanging?? I've read about it sm but all the comments make it seem so unviable.There are no tall buildings in my city or area. I can't get a gun. I can't find how to get SN. i wish there was an easy way to hang myself. What i really wish for is either a gun or N. I had a shot with N a few years ago and i'm still alive. I'm so desperate but i'm not willing to make any mistakes. I'm scared of pain but when i'm in the right mood i think i could stab myself sometimes (which wouldn't work anyways)
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