How alone are you?

[Debbie Northampton U]

I have no children, no family, no friends and no partner. I spend most of my days alone because I hate conversation. I get nothing out of talking to people and find my eyes glaze over. So it's a double edged sword. Be alone or suffer the anxiety/boredom of relationships.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I drink a lot of water, I piss a lot of pee.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

No children (what an unmitigated disaster that would be), hide from my friends, only imaginary partner. I feel the same really don't care for conversation it's hard too, makes me very anxious. Trying a bit to talk to people though think it helps not sure though.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am naturally very introverted. In general I just prefer being on my own, I find being around people and having conversations exhausting and the sound of certain voices can be particularly grating (due to autism sound sensitivity) I am around my parents but don't really socialise apart from that, I have lost touch with friends I have had as a child/teenager.

 

[BottomlessPit]

Social events are too stressful for me so I mostly don't go to them. And even when I go I end up not saying anything because I tend to over analyze what I want to say.

 

[suicide4me]

I am surrounded by people and have never felt more alone in my life.

 

[motel rooms]

I spend most of my days alone because I hate conversation. I get nothing out of talking to people and find my eyes glaze over.

You're talking to people who aren't all boring right now. We're not all brain-dead. A lot of us are working on achieving literal brain death though

 

[Totally_nothin]

i have nobody around me, no family, and almost no friends, my normal days are very sad, because i have nothing to do... only listening to music and thinking about suicide

 

[HenryHobkins]

im fortunate enough to have my immediate family around me, once i go back to university ill be completely alone again.

 

[StringPuppet]

I'm very alone most of the time but honestly I see it as a double edged sword just like you

 

[Mentalmick]

I am surrounded by people and have never felt more alone in my life.

Yep, me too. I used to think I was lonely but I'm not, I feel alone, which seems to be a different thing entirely.

 

[watchingthewheels]

On a scale of 1-10? I am "Lydia Deetz" from BEETLEJUICE alone...

 

[oblongsquare]

So alone that I forgot/forget how to properly human... I am conflicted between the desire to want to reach out to people but not wanting to burden them with my presence that I believe is sickening and temporary so instead I just stopped..

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I'm never physically alone, but my soul feels like it... I had someone who filled that emptiness but not anymore.

 

[Debbie Northampton U]

Thanks for the replies. I also over analyze what I say and then I'm so in my head thinking of what to spout and lose the convo thread as I'm too busy preparing myself. Thoroughly fed up with it.

 

[BandAddict]

I'm not physically alone, but I feel very lonely. It's like I'm trapped in my head, looking out, but not able to interact with the world properly. It's torture, and I can't bring myself to reach out. Even in conversation, I feel so far away, so removed. It's agonizing to be living this nightmare that no one else can see, and that no one will reach into to pull me out. I feel invisible, but I'm so tired that being seen just seems like too much.

I think everyone is tired of me. When I cry nobody talks to me, they ignore me or talk about random shit whether I engage or not. It's as though I didn't exist in that room. I don't want to exist.

 

[Debbie Northampton U]

I'm not physically alone, but I feel very lonely. It's like I'm trapped in my head, looking out, but not able to interact with the world properly. It's torture, and I can't bring myself to reach out. Even in conversation, I feel so far away, so removed. It's agonizing to be living this nightmare that no one else can see, and that no one will reach into to pull me out. I feel invisible, but I'm so tired that being seen just seems like too much.

I think everyone is tired of me. When I cry nobody talks to me, they ignore me or talk about random shit whether I engage or not. It's as though I didn't exist in that room. I don't want to exist.

Yep. If I could have relationships and enjoyed conversations then I wouldn't always be thinking about suicide. It's difficult to be alone either physically or mentally but I do wonder why I/we are like this. Why can't we relax and enjoy company!!

 

[SweetDreams500]

Lonely gang

 

[Bat 17]

I'm certainly more alone than I've ever been in my life. I've lost interest in a lot of social discourse, unless I really force myself which I only do if I have to.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Physically I'm surrounded by some very good people. And I'm very glad that they're here. And I don't wanna sound ungrateful, but none of em understands me. And no one can help me. I think they all wait for me to snap out of it one day. I can't even talk to anyone, when I'm feeling my worst. I'm feeling incredibly lonely most of the time, even though physically I'm almost never alone

 

[Debbie Northampton U]

Lonely gang

I blame the plastic particles we breathe in and drink - I sometimes think in years to come, it will be known that they effed with our bodies.

 

[WornOutLife]

The only person I see physically at least once a week is my dad.
Then, I see no one. However, virtually, I have some gaming friends and you all. Also, I talk to my students from Monday to Saturday.

I don't feel very lonely but I'm quite alone.

 

[Water-Lily]

I am alone, because I know the minute I speak my truth, everyone will turn on me

 

[SweetDreams500]

The only person I see physically at least once a day is my dad.
Then, I see no one. However, virtually, I have some gaming friends and you all. Also, I talk to my students from Monday to Saturday.

I don't feel very lonely but I'm quite alone.

what do you teach?

 

[WornOutLife]

what do you teach?

Spanish and English! My job is the only thing I actually enjoy but I gotta admit it's quite difficult to leave my bed sometimes lol.

 

[ClownMe]

Im lonely as can be. I have family but theyre all narcassists and hate me and some just dont want to be around me at all. I have no girlfriend or friends in general and havent had any for at least 5 or so years now. Everything in life i do alone. Its absolutely heartbreaking, sometimes i hug my pillow as i go to sleep to feel some kind of human contact. I have 2 online friends that i talk to sometimes and a dog who i love (but it's not the same as real life friends).

 

[SweetDreams500]

Im lonely as can be. I have family but theyre all narcassists and hate me and some just dont want to be around me at all. I have no girlfriend or friends in general and havent had any for at least 5 or so years now. Everything in life i do alone. Its absolutely heartbreaking, sometimes i hug my pillow as i go to sleep to feel some kind of human contact. I have 2 online friends that i talk to sometimes and a dog who i love (but it's not the same as real life friends).

Put on some headphones and listen to some asmr. That's what I do, it's great.

 

[Marktheghost]

I have no children, no family, no friends and no partner. I spend most of my days alone because I hate conversation. I get nothing out of talking to people and find my eyes glaze over. So it's a double edged sword. Be alone or suffer the anxiety/boredom of relationships.

Same, except I'd love to have someone to talk to. I'm desperate for some company!!

 

[Desi]

sometimes i feel terribly lonely when i'm in the middle of a crowd.
so many people just staring at their phones like zombies, too.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Hmm - on an arbitrary scale: somewhere in between. I enjoy my own company most of the time, and dislike outside social gatherings such as parties; in fact being around other people in those situations generally makes me feel very isolated. At the same time I still like to have contact and relationships with a few others that could be considered close - just not in the same way that most outgoing and extroverted individuals do.

I like being alone, but dislike the loneliness. I am a Schrödinger's Loner.