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Dying cat
- Nov 24, 2018
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LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
It matters to the people who live with you and the owner of the property. I'd prefer my bedroom but it would traumatize my parents and significantly lower the value of their property.
johnny
Experienced
- Dec 5, 2018
- 255
I guess it all depends on your method and who you want to find you.
I'd prefer my bedroom but my flat is a rental. I don't want the landlord to be unable to rent his flat out once I CTB. Especially as I won't be found for a week at least.
It's gonna have to be in a hotel, beach or deep in a forest.
It's gonna have to be in a hotel, beach or deep in a forest.
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Retched
I see the chaos in your eyes.
- Oct 8, 2018
- 837
I'd prefer home but don't want to cause more harm than I already will cause. Hotel room you can put up a sign and ctb in the bathroom...even though that is exposing people to your suicide as well. Guess it boils down to personal preference. I tried (and failed) to ctb in my car....and people still found me, so yeah. not sure what I'll do next time.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,035
I would prefer to do it in a secluded location, like in a forest, cave, or place where not many people go to and during the night. However, if lacking those places, I'd do it in my vehicle but drive off to a secluded location first.
I'd do it in my bedroom. Or in a very secluded place, like the woods or cave.
If you live with anyone, do it in a hotel. I would love to do it in my bedroom. But I don't want to traumatize my parents or being down the value of their property.
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J Tizzle
Member
- Dec 7, 2018
- 58
I dont have a bedroom because Ive been couch surfing for a bit. I'd love to do in a bedroom that's mine, but I'll save up for a hotel. Though, I feel guilty with the idea of a stranger finding me.
NumbItAll
expendable
- May 20, 2018
- 1,119
Hotel if you are sure that you will go through with it. Otherwise you've just wasted money on a hotel. Either way a warning sign is a good idea.
Hotels usually stink like cigarette smoke. I wouldn't want to die smelling that. I'd choose my bedroom over that, consequences be damned.
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[NoName]
Student
- Nov 15, 2018
- 151
I'd choose a hotel. I don't want to traumatize my loved ones with my body. They don't have the money to move, so they'd be stuck with having to live at the site of their trauma.
It would have to be a hotel for me. I live alone with little contact to the outside world and unemployed, if I CTB in my place, it would take months for my body to be discovered. Probably my neighbors complaining of a smell ... so sad is my life...
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
I'd want to do it in a hotel but I honestly would feel too guilty of traumatizing a complete stranger and/or by-standers. Also I wouldnt want the hotel owners and workers to lose business or anything.
That's understandable... If I do decide,i would book a hotel for a few days so they have time to remove my body. Also I'm not going to go out messy, most likely drinking N. or jumping out the balcony
Nerdyartist85
Disappointment
- Nov 27, 2018
- 62
Considering I live with my husband and would want to minimize the trauma as much as I could, I would prefer a hotel. It's selfish to say this, but I'm not too concerned with strangers finding me, but it would hurt me if my loved ones were the ones to find me first. I know that sounds horrible
Christina
Member
- Dec 6, 2018
- 17
Same I would like to CTB in my bedroom because I feel more in control there and at peace there. However, I am worried it will lower the value of the property and my mother will be traumitised.
Thoughtforms
Experienced
- Nov 1, 2018
- 220
I want to in a hotel but I'm finding it increasing difficult to even leave the house.
Make sense to me...someone has to find you... unless you want your body not to be found. If it is not your family, then it would have to be a stranger
piratemaverick
Member
- Nov 8, 2018
- 50
Why would it lower the value of a property?
Angst Filled Fuck Up
Illuminated
- Sep 9, 2018
- 3,011
Because you'll come back as that thing from the Grudge, and nobody wants that in their house.
I would always go with a hotel. It's less personal and provides some distance between you and your family with regards to the traumatizing effects.
Smilla
Visionary
- Apr 30, 2018
- 2,549
I'd assume hotels carry insurance to cover costs of room refurbishment if needed?
Eden2k
Experienced
- Nov 20, 2018
- 228
Sorry! I started writing a reply and all this fell out :(
I decided not to ctb where I live...but it seems the people who rent space to me really don't care about my well-being. (Either they don't Know, don't show, or don't care) As I've asked them for little things, like, really simple small things that I need help with, or to cease/lessen creating agitating vibrations that are worsening my condition.
They've known to some extent the state of mind I've been in and have not even come by to check on me, in months. I feel like I don't exist here. Love thy neighbor, or at least, say hi, (especially if you suspect they're having a challenging time) or, if that's too much, evict them...if someone can't deal with a sad sack near their home, kick them out with notice and help them leave.
Yeah I could drive my car somewhere, and ctb...but, that'd just traumatize another person (who finds me). If I go deep into the woods, which may be unfeasible, because I'm still unsure of how much my method supplies weigh, or if they're affected by temps...that has considerations.
A well meaning Bear could interrupt me...a mouse could claw/bite open my exit bag...
The benefits to go outside though (besides beauty, being surrounded by loving nature beings)...would be (at least in winter) that I'd freeze and hopefully destroy my organs so they can not be reused...though I'd love to be an organ donor...I don't want to stay alive on this planet inside the body of another...but...I guess I'm still considering that one (so much to work out!) cause...an organ sure would be a great gift...dang...if I could find the right person to buy my organs from me and deposit the profits into a familial account to ease financial burdens, that'd be the shit.
If I go deep into the forest...I'd have to leave my vehicle somewhere which would eventually be found, I'd be 'missing' and a search and rescue team would have to stress to find me...I don't want that burden for others.
Also, so much can happen 'on the way to the bus station' like...what if I wreck my car, and have an accident preventing me from catching the bus, that'd suck.
And, I'm in a rural mountainous area with nowhere closer than a 45 minute drive that I'm aware of that I could park and not be parking suspiciously possibly on private property, or side of the road (what a lonely place to die. My depressed mind will lie and tell me that's the most fitting spot for my kind) I don't want to spoil trailhead vibes with a suicide.
I hope to have much time, a few days to a week for my soul to linger near my body to work out whatever it needs to...or, ya know, just to chill together for 'old times sake'. I might create an epic playlist and wear my Sennheisers right through the blissful end, playing songs of worship, love, and str8 up Rockin' out (with an aux. battery pack so it stays playing for a long time.)
My greatest desire in this life lately has been to die, and return to life, not a near death experience...but, to actually be 100% dead and return Jesus style days later, enlightened, with magical healing abilities, lol...I've known a few people who have experienced this...but...it's a lonely existance afterwards, as few people have shared the experience. Joe Marshalla.
So, anyways...now I'm less worried about where I do it (or rather at peace with my decision to do so wherever I feel is best based on my current state of mind). I'd never do it at my parents, or a friends home.
I don't even know why I'm still sharing on this community as I'm very discontent with some of the posts I've seen recently about people getting banned. Sigh, what a lonely existance for someone who can't even find home on a suicide forum...but anyway, I hope this serves whoever may read it, and it's helping me compile my 'note' which I don't intend to leave, cause, fuck you people, you let me die, (not you fine people) I screamed for help, held out for years, and nobody helped, because nobody can help, our society isn't set up to support people like me/us. God damn, I'm so fucking smart, and brilliant, and beautiful, how sad that this world will lose me. I'm no narcissist, just a depressed Realist. I always longed to be a writer. Lately I've discovered I'm a bit of a Rapper too. Such gifts to nourish/cherish/develop - but time's running out, so I may not write 'the best suicide note ever written' my epic story (as I've fantasized about and mentally 'drafted' during my late night Pothead reveries) okay, okay, that sounded Narcissistic... Love y'all. Peace.
Oh yeah, this is just like, my opinion, man.
I decided not to ctb where I live...but it seems the people who rent space to me really don't care about my well-being. (Either they don't Know, don't show, or don't care) As I've asked them for little things, like, really simple small things that I need help with, or to cease/lessen creating agitating vibrations that are worsening my condition.
They've known to some extent the state of mind I've been in and have not even come by to check on me, in months. I feel like I don't exist here. Love thy neighbor, or at least, say hi, (especially if you suspect they're having a challenging time) or, if that's too much, evict them...if someone can't deal with a sad sack near their home, kick them out with notice and help them leave.
Yeah I could drive my car somewhere, and ctb...but, that'd just traumatize another person (who finds me). If I go deep into the woods, which may be unfeasible, because I'm still unsure of how much my method supplies weigh, or if they're affected by temps...that has considerations.
A well meaning Bear could interrupt me...a mouse could claw/bite open my exit bag...
The benefits to go outside though (besides beauty, being surrounded by loving nature beings)...would be (at least in winter) that I'd freeze and hopefully destroy my organs so they can not be reused...though I'd love to be an organ donor...I don't want to stay alive on this planet inside the body of another...but...I guess I'm still considering that one (so much to work out!) cause...an organ sure would be a great gift...dang...if I could find the right person to buy my organs from me and deposit the profits into a familial account to ease financial burdens, that'd be the shit.
If I go deep into the forest...I'd have to leave my vehicle somewhere which would eventually be found, I'd be 'missing' and a search and rescue team would have to stress to find me...I don't want that burden for others.
Also, so much can happen 'on the way to the bus station' like...what if I wreck my car, and have an accident preventing me from catching the bus, that'd suck.
And, I'm in a rural mountainous area with nowhere closer than a 45 minute drive that I'm aware of that I could park and not be parking suspiciously possibly on private property, or side of the road (what a lonely place to die. My depressed mind will lie and tell me that's the most fitting spot for my kind) I don't want to spoil trailhead vibes with a suicide.
I hope to have much time, a few days to a week for my soul to linger near my body to work out whatever it needs to...or, ya know, just to chill together for 'old times sake'. I might create an epic playlist and wear my Sennheisers right through the blissful end, playing songs of worship, love, and str8 up Rockin' out (with an aux. battery pack so it stays playing for a long time.)
My greatest desire in this life lately has been to die, and return to life, not a near death experience...but, to actually be 100% dead and return Jesus style days later, enlightened, with magical healing abilities, lol...I've known a few people who have experienced this...but...it's a lonely existance afterwards, as few people have shared the experience. Joe Marshalla.
So, anyways...now I'm less worried about where I do it (or rather at peace with my decision to do so wherever I feel is best based on my current state of mind). I'd never do it at my parents, or a friends home.
I don't even know why I'm still sharing on this community as I'm very discontent with some of the posts I've seen recently about people getting banned. Sigh, what a lonely existance for someone who can't even find home on a suicide forum...but anyway, I hope this serves whoever may read it, and it's helping me compile my 'note' which I don't intend to leave, cause, fuck you people, you let me die, (not you fine people) I screamed for help, held out for years, and nobody helped, because nobody can help, our society isn't set up to support people like me/us. God damn, I'm so fucking smart, and brilliant, and beautiful, how sad that this world will lose me. I'm no narcissist, just a depressed Realist. I always longed to be a writer. Lately I've discovered I'm a bit of a Rapper too. Such gifts to nourish/cherish/develop - but time's running out, so I may not write 'the best suicide note ever written' my epic story (as I've fantasized about and mentally 'drafted' during my late night Pothead reveries) okay, okay, that sounded Narcissistic... Love y'all. Peace.
Oh yeah, this is just like, my opinion, man.
Retched
I see the chaos in your eyes.
- Oct 8, 2018
- 837
you are required to report that a death took place in a house before selling.
apparently alot of people do it in hotels and they don't have to disclose shit
Sick Boy
Student
- Oct 19, 2018
- 186
I dont want to ctb in my bedroom,i dont want to traumatize my family and leave a negative energy in my house
I prefer a hotel room,I just hope the hotel staff call the paramedics before they enter my room,i dont want to traumatize a housekeeper
I prefer a hotel room,I just hope the hotel staff call the paramedics before they enter my room,i dont want to traumatize a housekeeper
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
Hunter
Experienced
- Sep 14, 2018
- 260
I wouldn't recommend home unless you put in security measures to keep your family from entering and seeing you. They'll probably have PTSD the rest of their lives if they see you. The hotel staff probably have experienced death in their rooms before. If you're crafty you can try getting their front desk email so you can warn them through a delayed email.
