Hollow Point
A̵l̷w̷a̷y̸s̷ ̷t̸i̸r̵e̸d̶
- Mar 24, 2020
- 120
I'm interested to hear people's experiences dealing with hospitals regarding their mental health. It's really good information to get out there for people who haven't experienced it.
One day I spent several hours at a mall with a shooting range in it. My plan was to spend my last bit of money renting a gun and offing myself. I'm thankful I didn't, for a number of reasons. Biggest one being that's a pretty abrasive way to go.
I spent hours texting with a person from a hotline. It was actually a good conversation. You should already know the hotlines intentions. If they think you're serious, police/medics will be contacted. They have to do that.
So as I'm sitting there texting, two police come and put me in handcuffs. They bring me to the hospital and I get checked in. They put me in a locked room supervised by a security guard. I had a water to drink. I had to change into hospital gown there and put all my belongings in a bag for them to take.
A doctor came in and asked what's wrong. This is obviously a hard fucking question to answer, but I did my best. After our conversation of my pathetic life, he took me to a row of beds that were separated by a curtain. I managed to get a bit of sleep there.
Here my vitals were taken. I was given a sandwhich and more water. The two people next to me were in mental and physical anguish. I belive this was the "cool down" section. They want you to be level headed and calm, because you're likely in a frantic mindset if you are there. If you gotta sleep, you sleep. If they gotta make you sleep, they make you sleep.
A Male nurse came in and asked me again, what's wrong. Again, I explained my story. Its extremely draining to have to discuss, especially multiple times, in a bad state of mind. He hears me out, and says a doctor will be in to see me soon. The decision they have is to either release you, you check you into the ward for further evaluation and rehabilitation.
When the doctor came in, I had to explain myself for the third damn time. At This point being just emotionally drained and not really caring about properly conveying my story well enough. After listening, he tells me I have "situational low self esteem" and I'll be released.
I got there at about 6-7pm, and was released at 4-5am. I'm homeless so I stayed in the lobby until I got kicked out by the police there. I was not given a follow up number or so much as a pamphlet on mental health.
I understand they are busy, but I felt completely failed by their system and treatment. The whole experience just left me frustrated and unsure of myself. I felt brushed off even though I poured my heart out three times...and let me tell you, I dont have a happy story to tell.
My impression beforehand was go to the hospital if you're feeling suicidal, and they will take care of you until you're safe with yourself. In reality, I was pushed through the system and kicked out the doors with no real help being given to me. A waste of both my time and the doctors time.
I hope I can hear some more positive experiences..but I have to be honest and say mine sucked. Is there a better way to treat this scenario?
One day I spent several hours at a mall with a shooting range in it. My plan was to spend my last bit of money renting a gun and offing myself. I'm thankful I didn't, for a number of reasons. Biggest one being that's a pretty abrasive way to go.
I spent hours texting with a person from a hotline. It was actually a good conversation. You should already know the hotlines intentions. If they think you're serious, police/medics will be contacted. They have to do that.
So as I'm sitting there texting, two police come and put me in handcuffs. They bring me to the hospital and I get checked in. They put me in a locked room supervised by a security guard. I had a water to drink. I had to change into hospital gown there and put all my belongings in a bag for them to take.
A doctor came in and asked what's wrong. This is obviously a hard fucking question to answer, but I did my best. After our conversation of my pathetic life, he took me to a row of beds that were separated by a curtain. I managed to get a bit of sleep there.
Here my vitals were taken. I was given a sandwhich and more water. The two people next to me were in mental and physical anguish. I belive this was the "cool down" section. They want you to be level headed and calm, because you're likely in a frantic mindset if you are there. If you gotta sleep, you sleep. If they gotta make you sleep, they make you sleep.
A Male nurse came in and asked me again, what's wrong. Again, I explained my story. Its extremely draining to have to discuss, especially multiple times, in a bad state of mind. He hears me out, and says a doctor will be in to see me soon. The decision they have is to either release you, you check you into the ward for further evaluation and rehabilitation.
When the doctor came in, I had to explain myself for the third damn time. At This point being just emotionally drained and not really caring about properly conveying my story well enough. After listening, he tells me I have "situational low self esteem" and I'll be released.
I got there at about 6-7pm, and was released at 4-5am. I'm homeless so I stayed in the lobby until I got kicked out by the police there. I was not given a follow up number or so much as a pamphlet on mental health.
I understand they are busy, but I felt completely failed by their system and treatment. The whole experience just left me frustrated and unsure of myself. I felt brushed off even though I poured my heart out three times...and let me tell you, I dont have a happy story to tell.
My impression beforehand was go to the hospital if you're feeling suicidal, and they will take care of you until you're safe with yourself. In reality, I was pushed through the system and kicked out the doors with no real help being given to me. A waste of both my time and the doctors time.
I hope I can hear some more positive experiences..but I have to be honest and say mine sucked. Is there a better way to treat this scenario?
