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GreenTree

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Jun 1, 2020
568
I keep having horrible thoughts of killing loved ones. I can't cope anymore. Please help.
 
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Julgran

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Dec 15, 2021
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What makes you feel like this? Did your loved ones wrong you in any way, or did these thoughts suddenly come out of nowhere?

You are stronger than that. You are only here to make that choice for yourself - not for others.
 
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waitingforrest

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Dec 27, 2021
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That must be really causing you great distress. If they are intrusive thoughts, that doesn't mean you will act on them or they are a reflection of your character. It doesn't make you a bad person for thinking about this, the mind has ways of becoming our worst enemy.

It must be really hard to cope, especially if you don't feel like you can talk to anyone irl about this.

I sadly don't know how to deal with disturbing thoughts myself, I just try to numb my mind by any means possible to stop thinking.

I hope that people, and me included don't judge you on your thoughts. It must be hard trying to cope with these thoughts alone.
 
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rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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I keep having horrible thoughts of killing loved ones. I can't cope anymore. Please help.
That is hard to endure. Is it some form of OCD?
 
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GreenTree

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Jun 1, 2020
568
What makes you feel like this? Did your loved ones wrong you in any way, or did these thoughts suddenly come out of nowhere?

You are stronger than that. You are only here to make that choice for yourself - not for others.
I don't know why I feel like this. They done nothing but love and care for me. I've had these thoughts before. The knives been hidden a few times. I hate myself. Want to die to not harm others. Why is dying so hard.
 
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Julgran

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Dec 15, 2021
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I don't know why I feel like this. They done nothing but love and care for me. I've had these thoughts before. The knives been hidden a few times. I hate myself. Want to die to not harm others. Why is dying so hard.

I see. It must be hard for you to go through it all.

Do you think that you could redirect those thoughts to something else, like going out and run, or playing video games?
 
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completely-done

Experienced
Jan 31, 2022
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It may be intrusive thoughts, which can also be a symptom of OCD. Remember this: you are not your thoughts. That's not really you thinking it.
 
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GreenTree

Mage
Jun 1, 2020
568
I see. It must be hard for you to go through it all.

Do you think that you could redirect those thoughts to something else, like going out and run, or playing video games?
I went for a walk. Doesn't help though. It's anguish. Thank you for replying though.
It may be intrusive thoughts, which can also be a symptom of OCD. Remember this: you are not your thoughts. That's not really you thinking it.
Yes it is ocd thoughts. So painful. I think it is really me though. Thank you for replying.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That must be really awful and distressing. I hope you can find a way to be free of those thoughts.
 
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Eternally Dottie

Dreamer
Dec 17, 2021
191
Sorry you are going through this. It is the harm OCD causing you to think this way, it's not your fault. Can you access any therapy or speak to a health professional about this as it is a recognised condition?
 
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GreenTree

Mage
Jun 1, 2020
568
I had a diazapam to calm down. I can't take much more and want to die. Fear of failing again and loved ones is stopping attempting. I try and try to work out this thing called life. So many of us mess it up. What's the point of it too suffer unbearably in agony. If God is real I sure hope he answers me when I die. I'm sure when we die every question we've ever had is answered. Thanks for listening and helping.
 
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