Venting Hopelessness in the face of hope

[smile418]

There are so many people on here with actual problems like disabilities, sickness, poverty and actual mental illnesses. And I am here in with the perfect life. I have all the opportunities to get better but I just want to die so bad. Fuck.

There is nothing really here except me complaining so feel free to delete this post. I'm just a whiny bitch.

Also it seems like an above average number of members have left this form in the last couple of days. RIP to those that have moved on.

 

[LittleJem]

My life is great - apart from chronic incurable depression - and the state of the world.

 

[s1mplem3]

Is there such thing as perfect life? If you wanna die there must be a reason.

 

[StillWaiting]

I don't think you need any reason to want to die.
Like what people have said, we are forced to live without our permission.

 

[smile418]

Is there such thing as perfect life? If you wanna die there must be a reason.

My reason for wanting to die is that my life has no meaning. I have no desires or drive or purpose.
Of course you are right that my life is no actually perfect since I want to die. Superficially speaking I have everything I could want. Emotionally I am a wreck.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

No one is perfect, Perfection is just a mindset that doesn't reflect reality! And what is actual mental illness? Seriously? What is it? Everyone spouts nowadays MENTAL ILLNESS.... yet their idea of mental illness is that they have had a bad day and cant cope, whilst others trauma from past has hit them on the face, yet the one who has had a bad day is always more important.... they are the ones taken seriously, whilst those in the truest depths are seen as fine

Perfection is bullshit, you ain't a whiney bitch, fuck no way!! just no< NEVER see yourself as this way!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

There are so many people on here with actual problems like disabilities, sickness, poverty and actual mental illnesses. And I am here in with the perfect life. I have all the opportunities to get better but I just want to die so bad. Fuck.

There is nothing really here except me complaining so feel free to delete this post. I'm just a whiny bitch.

Also it seems like an above average number of members have left this form in the last couple of days. RIP to those that have moved on.

No one but you can understand how you feel or quantify your depression.
Sometimes I see other threads and think 'Wow you should try and walk a mile in my shoes.'
But then I remember - it's not my place to define what someone else should think or feel. Everyone has their own way of walking.
Some mental health issues are very specific and do respond to treatment though it comes at a cost.
But many mental health 'diagnoses' are just labels for when the doctors don't understand because they don't actually listen. Speak to five different psychiatrists and you'll get five different 'diagnoses.'
People are more complex than they make out and you don't 'fix' a person, you help them learn to deal with being who they are.
So how you feel is up to you and feeling suicidal can easily hit those with what seems like a perfect life.

Nb. Sorry for all the 'air quotes' I don't normally do that, promise.

 

[Epsilon0]

There is so much wisdom in these lines @Underscore

But then I remember - it's not my place to define what someone else should think or feel. Everyone has their own way of walking.