Discussion Hopeful Goodbye

[weallhaveourghosts]

Well everyone, I'm hoping this is my goodbye. I've decided to jump. I know this method isn't a lot of peoples favorites but I've done my research and as long as I don't land on my feet (which I don't plan to) I have approximately 70-80% mortality rate. I know this isn't the best odds. Of course I'd rather it be 100% but nothing is 100%. I can't do it quite yet since the area of the city I plan to go to is where a lot of businesses are so I'll have to go a bit later. I think I'll get there around 10PM or 11PM maybe since by then most of the shops have closed and not many people have a reason to be there. I'll get to experience one last good view of the city at night and then that's it. I think I'll listen to some music on my walk over there. I also have to remember to take off my jacket as it is a puffer and the cushioning could soften the impact.

So since I have time to kill today the plan I think will be

Get a coffee

Watch some more House, M.D.

Have lunch

Perhaps go for a walk to the lake or around the city

Watch more House

Perhaps have a nice dinner. Something sentimental.

More Tv haha

Then head over there

Here's a photo of where I'll hopefully become a ghost

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

What a beautiful view.

Whatever happens after today, I hope that today is wonderful.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

enjoy those little things. we're here with you no matter what happens at the end of the day. sending love.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

What a beautiful view.

Whatever happens after today, I hope that today is wonderful.

Thank you :)

enjoy those little things. we're here with you no matter what happens at the end of the day. sending love.

Thank you. This is the most supportive community I've come across.

 

[sweetcreep]

i really hope it's painless and quick for you. but if you change your mind, that's ok too.

is that nyc? if it is, hello neighbor. stay safe out there.

 

[roommate]

I'm sorry but chancing that with insane consequences, I would rather like to see you abort it.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Sending love, whatever you decide at the end of the day, whatever happens, wishing you only the best. Enjoy your day and know that you are not alone with us being here.

 

[bankai]

Wish you well fren.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

i really hope it's painless and quick for you. but if you change your mind, that's ok too.

is that nyc? if it is, hello neighbor. stay safe out there.

Not NYC, MKE actually!

 

[SleepyTransit]

Whatever happens, safe travels fellow user.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I'm sorry but chancing that with insane consequences, I would rather like to see you abort it.

I know the risks are there it's kept me from doing it for awhile now but at this point it is all I've got.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I doesn't look like a high building. We're all here because we want peace and nobody will judge your motives or your decision to ctb, but we don't want you to hurt yourself either, specially in a way that may have long-term consequences.

Please reconsider if it's anything less than a 10th floor or something similar. The chances of survival are not unimportant for anything lower than that. Regardless of what you choose, we're here and we wish you peace.

 

[Griever]

 

[bankai]

I just made a post about falling few minutes ago and why I wouldn't do it myself. I think there are better methods anyway, please read this. If you still want to go ahead, that's fine,

Post in thread '6 stories good enough?'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/6-stories-good-enough.204359/post-2984720

 

[roommate]

I know the risks are there it's kept me from doing it for awhile now but at this point it is all I've got.

I really feel sorry for you it has come to this.
But it can always get worse, you don't wanna be a plant sitting out your days, be always staring at the wall and having insane pain.
Please reconsider.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I doesn't look like a high building. We're all here because we want peace and nobody will judge your motives or your decision to ctb, but we don't want you to hurt yourself either, specially in a way that may have long-term consequences.

Please reconsider if it's anything less than a 10th floor or something similar. The chances of survival are not unimportant for anything lower than that. Regardless of what you choose, we're here and we wish you peace.

My only other option with a tall building would be a rooftop bar but there's a glass barrier that I'd have to climb over which I doubt I get get away with without people trying to stop me. Otherwise I'd have to try and time it right with the bridge with a clearance below of 120′ but that has a chain link fence so again being stopped is something that could happen.

 

[FishRain3469]

Blessings and prayers sent your way, whether in life or death. Please take care of yourself until then, enjoy some episodes of House! Mann, I used to watch that all the time. Good shit!

Hmm... I wonder how many stories/ floors that building is ? Looks to be tall enough... Maybe idk. Hard to tell with just a pic.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I just made a post about falling few minutes ago and why I wouldn't do it myself. I think there are better methods anyway, please read this. If you still want to go ahead, that's fine,

Post in thread '6 stories good enough?'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/6-stories-good-enough.204359/post-2984720

Yeah I was just reading your comment before coming back to my own post. Yes, there are better methods but don't all of them have a risk of failure? I'm trying to make do with what I have access to and the ability to do. I know about SN, the night-night method, the exit bag. I've read the wikis and the threads. Trust me, I've spent long enough going through it all. I'm terrified of heights actually and so this is difficult enough for me.

I really feel sorry for you it has come to this.
But it can always get worse, you don't wanna be a plant sitting out your days, be always staring at the wall and having insane pain.
Please reconsider.

Yeah, I know and it is a good point but I've thought about that already and just would rather risk it than not. Didn't that one direction guy die from a third floor balcony fall? Height has a lot of what ifs. He could've survived but didn't. Life is a game.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

My only other option with a tall building would be a rooftop bar but there's a glass barrier that I'd have to climb over which I doubt I get get away with without people trying to stop me. Otherwise I'd have to try and time it right with the bridge with a clearance below of 120′ but that has a chain link fence so again being stopped is something that could happen.

Then I'd consider other more effective methods, but that's me. Again, nobody can judge your reasons, but nobody wants to be a vegetable or end up for life in a wheelchair and the more you can do to reduce chances the better.

The more I look at that pic, the more I think you should reconsider. Looks like a 5/6th floor.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

Well said friend.Looks like your ghosts stayed away because you're a monster. I salute you.

What do you mean I'm a monster?

 

[bankai]

What do you mean I'm a monster?

I meant you're a beast,you're courageous.You're overcoming your fear.

I deleted it,sorry if it sounded weird.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I meant you're a beast,you're courageous.

Oh thank you I guess. I just have been through a lot of life for a 30 year old and so nothing really gets me anymore.

Then I'd consider other more effective methods, but that's me. Again, nobody can judge your reasons, but nobody wants to be a vegetable or end up for life in a wheelchair and the more you can do to reduce chances the better.

The more I look at that pic, the more I think you should reconsider. Looks like a 5/6th floor.

True and I get your points. I'd much rather go out the way that 70 year old woman did with stockings tied around her neck, at home, in bed.

I meant you're a beast,you're courageous.You're overcoming your fear.

I deleted it,sorry if it sounded weird.

No worries, I just hear monster and think bad person but obvs you didn't mean it like that!

 

[sweetcreep]

Not NYC, MKE actually!

funny how most big cities in the US look the same.

got any music you're going to listen to today?

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

funny how most big cities in the US look the same.

got any music you're going to listen to today?

Right? I wish I were in NYC I got to go there quite a bit and miss it! The high line was my favorite place!

Will listen to Twenty One Pilots Vessel album

 

[sweetcreep]

Right? I wish I were in NYC I got to go there quite a bit and miss it! The high line was my favorite place!

Will listen to Twenty One Pilots Vessel album

i love the high line! really pretty with nice views. i used to go there with friends.

good plan. i'll take some time to listen to it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I didn't do it last night. But right now everything is grey and I just want to die. I'm just gonna go do it.

 

[encore]

Right? I wish I were in NYC I got to go there quite a bit and miss it! The high line was my favorite place!

Will listen to Twenty One Pilots Vessel album

vessel is an awesome album. i miss the first time i first discovered it. im sorry it has come to that. you sound like a great person

 

[anonymous2025]

Man. I hope you find peace. Your a brave soul. It won't be too long before the reaper comes for me.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

vessel is an awesome album. i miss the first time i first discovered it. im sorry it has come to that. you sound like a great person

Twenty One Pilots is amazing. I listened to them so much back when they first came out. Someone I know has the Vessel CD and it's one of the reasons I want to listen to it when I CTB.

Also obviously I'm still here. Just couldn't jump. I think the fear of heights and fear of what happens if I fail kept me from doing so. Looking back into methods I can do at home. Having a roommate and not being able to really modify the space makes it slightly difficult. I think if I can figure out partial and not have too much SI kick in that'll be my ticket out.