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Circles
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- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,297
And I'm not meaning online whatsoever. It's just finally hitting me lately that I've hadn't talked to and I mean actually talk to another person in real life besides my own family in years probably over a decade by now. I don't know what to feel. Lost, disgusted and ashamed with myself, I hate how I've gotten this bad and gone this long and I wonder why I'm so fucked whenever it comes to human relationships. Hell I make it sound like some biological terminology or something cause I've I don't know what it's like. Nothing ever goes beyond a simple hey or a hello for me. I'm at a point where I'm honestly thinking of asking a random person how their day is going or how they're doing just off the bat just so I can talk to someone. And you know what's comical I want to relearn French again but who the fuck am I going to talk to it with? I went to a bar recently for the first time and at first I was quiet as usual but they started a trivia game and people got into groups and I got into one and for once in years more than one person was interacting with me but we didn't talked much that wasn't related to the trivia game. But the game ended and people didn't want anything else do with me so I just left. I had to go to a fucking bar of all places just to feel a human connection for once. I just wonder is there any hope for someone like me? Probably not.
So how long has it been for you?
So how long has it been for you?