Holyfuckingshit

[Nem]

I am just going psycho with not being able to sleep more than three hours. This is all because an idiot coworker gave me some Valium when I said I was dealing with depression and anxiety.
I'm completely fucked and my sister is hoping I stick around, I need to end this suffering.
Peace/hugs

 

[Blackjack]

Your posts are very erratic and seemingly out of control. You can't make good decisions about planning your exit like this. Breathe.

 

[Coolchicka]

From personal experience, psychosis can fuck your life up. If you feel yourself losing control, don't be afraid to tell a professional before shit hits the fan.

 

[Nem]

Your posts are very erratic and seemingly out of control. You can't make good decisions about planning your exit like this. Breathe.

Seems to make sense to me, have gone five years on three hours of sleep a night and it's all because of taking garbage meds. Yesterday was the worst day yet
Peace
I'm literally at the end of my rope, this lack of sleep has been fucking with me for way too long. It's getting impossible to work and yesterday I was as fucked up as possible, it was that bad. I can fall asleep but can't stay asleep. I have sn but have heard F is a decent method as well and can possibly avoid using meto since the med reaction I had could make side effects worse.

Peace/hugs

 

[White_Room293]

I am just going psycho with not being able to sleep more than three hours. This is all because an idiot coworker gave me some Valium when I said I was dealing with depression and anxiety.
Peace/hugs

Are you sure you aren't bipolar? You sound like me off of my meds.

 

[Rachel74]

Your posts are very erratic and seemingly out of control. You can't make good decisions about planning your exit like this. Breathe.

This is so true.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I am just going psycho with not being able to sleep more than three hours. This is all because an idiot coworker gave me some Valium when I said I was dealing with depression and anxiety.
I'm completely fucked and my sister is hoping I stick around, I need to end this suffering.
Peace/hugs

Get on some medication, it saved my life.

 

[Nem]

Are you sure you aren't bipolar? You sound like me off of my meds.

I have had some mild bipolar problems but this is straight depression right now. Suffered severe damage from dangerously prescribed meds a few years ago and it screwed up my sleep

 

[Blackjack]

I have had some mild bipolar problems but this is straight depression right now. Suffered severe damage from dangerously prescribed meds a few years ago and it screwed up my sleep

Ambien

 

[Nem]

Get on some medication, it saved my life.

Medication actually ruined my health, nervous system got damaged severely but I'm glad it is helping you!

Ambien

Tried that and I only slept maybe 30 minutes more

 

[Rachel74]

Ambien

Ambien was my life line but extremely addictive. I had to be weaned off it.

I have had some mild bipolar problems but this is straight depression right now. Suffered severe damage from dangerously prescribed meds a few years ago and it screwed up my sleep

You need sleep, have you tried CBD oil?

 

[Nem]

Ambien was my life line but extremely addictive. I had to be weaned off it.

My problems started with taking Valium, most sleeping meds can be addictive

 

[Rachel74]

My problems started with taking Valium, most sleeping meds can be addictive

Mine was Ambien, then Zopiclone and Diazapam. Dr as since cut me off so I have to buy them illegally now but if I sleep well it does the job for me so that's what I'm doing. It also helps my Tinnitus too x

 

[Blackjack]

Tried that and I only slept maybe 30 minutes more

Damn!

I am just going psycho with not being able to sleep more than three hours. This is all because an idiot coworker gave me some Valium when I said I was dealing with depression and anxiety.
I'm completely fucked and my sister is hoping I stick around, I need to end this suffering.
Peace/hugs

So do you have an exit plan/method/timeline?

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Sleep. Don't miss it till its gone. Yeah zopiclone and mirtazapine screwed me up royally. These days I just pretend to sleep.

 

[Rachel74]

if you could sleep would it solve the problem?

Sleep. Don't miss it till its gone. Yeah zopiclone and mirtazapine screwed me up royally. These days I just pretend to sleep.

Zopi is evil stuff, the stuff of nightmares.

 

[Sweet emotion]

My problems started with taking Valium, most sleeping meds can be addictive

Taking a Valium gave you nerve damage? I've never heard of that. Valium get you tired. I would think they would calm and relax you. I've never heard of nerve damage from a few Valium. This could be a problem you could get under control possibly if you want to. Do you have actual proof those Valium damaged your nervous system? Because and this can just be a possibility since you said you took the Valium because you were depressed that the Valium isn't the underlying issue at all. Plus don't take any meds from friends who think they're psychiatrists.

 

[Nem]

Taking a Valium gave you nerve damage? I've never heard of that. Valium get you tired. I would think they would calm and relax you. I've never heard of nerve damage from a few Valium. This could be a problem you could get under control possibly if you want to. Do you have actual proof those Valium damaged your nervous system? Because and this can just be a possibility since you said you took the Valium because you were depressed that the Valium isn't the underlying issue at all. Plus don't take any meds from friends who think they're psychiatrists.

No, the Valium got me back on meds that I was free from for 10 years. My dr kept me on it for over two years and that shit isn't supposed to be taken more than two weeks. The withdrawals were absolute hell on top of damage caused by my dr combining meds that were not supposed to be combined and I suffered a severe reaction

Ambien was my life line but extremely addictive. I had to be weaned off it.

You need sleep, have you tried CBD oil?

Yes, didn't notice any difference
I'm not sure what is exactly wrong here but I'm suffering very much and a portion of these replies felt like I was having to defend myself.